Hey Skippy_07, welcome to our friendly online community. We are so glad you decided to join us here. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.
We're sorry to hear that you have nightly nausea, sensory issues, feel edgy, and that you are fearful of the hospital. It sounds like you are dealing with lots of things right now. Hopefully venting this on our forum has helped you to feel a little bit better.
We know you said you find it hard talking by voice, but please know that you are always welcome to make contact with our online support service. They are available on Webchat from 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
If things become too distressing and overwhelming for you, and if you have thoughts of suicide or self-harm, please know that there are online crisis support services available such as Lifeline Suicide Call Back Service. You can access these online chat and/or email-based services by visiting their websites.
We're not sure if you've heard of safety planning, but in case you haven't, we thought we'd briefly inform you about it. People use safety planning to help them stay safe when experiencing suicidal thoughts, feelings, distress or crisis. We have an app that people can use to create a safety plan. There is also a web version. You might want to learn more about this here: ty-planning?gclid=Cj0KCQiA4b2MBhD2ARIsAIrcB-TtofWfCYCno5FXmslxq9ZoRkIbHGqP7kfHsw-bJNC6Nb5QbEGcoLAaAnDQEALw_wcB
We hope that some of these suggestions are helpful for you. Please continue to come here and post as you see fit. We are always around to listen.