Your post could not have come at a better time for me
A little over two weeks ago I checked into hospital because I was feeling very suicidal. I got better and came out and made some more improvements in my life.
Yesterday and today however I have been pretty negative. I have felt very depressed and sad and lonely. Loneliness is creeping up on me a lot lately. So I wanted to check and see why so I came onto forums to have a look. I saw this post and loved it.
I think it's a great idea to make one like this.
The reasons I stay:
- family and friends would be devastated (even if my depressive mind tries to say otherwise)
- I would miss out on the rest of my life and I still have so much more to do and see
- it's a permanent solution for a temporary problem
Recently an old school friend of my younger sister suicided. Everyone was shocked. It seems that that along with other circumstances in life have led to a point now where I see that life is fragile and can be taken away so why do it myself.
I often think I don't fit in with my own generation at the age of 24 but then I remember that I conquered suicide. Twice. Part of me thinks that third time is the charm and then after that I will be truly free from this burden of depression. Who knows.
There is a great poem I sometimes remember. I want to share some of it
"The soul, denied its divine heritage in life, won't find rest in Hades either.
But if what is holy to me, the poem. That rests in my heart, succeeds.
Then welcome, silent world of shadows! Once I'll have. Lived like the gods, and no more is needed."
Thanks again for your post because it cheered me up :) great idea for a thread.
Thank you for your post.