Welcome here to the Forum, it's a good place to come to and as you have seen from this thread there are others who have been badly treated and pushed too far. Having such hard times makes both for understanding, and most often a desire to help others in the same sort of situation.
So you are among friends.
It is a terrible thing to by put down, held in low regard or sneered at by others. It's even worse if it is family or friends, becuse it it is just those people oyu would expect support and understanding from.
I'm glad you are gong to stick around, though there really is no need to prove yourself to them, if they were worth proving to they would not say the things they did.
I would like to know more about you and your circumstances as I and others would like to talk about your problems and give our own accounts of where we've been. Without that we can only give more general tips, and you deserve better than that.
So a couple of thngs, the first being if you feel overwhelmed or frightened of whay you might do then call someone
There's the Kids Help Line (1800 55 1800) if you are under 25. They have chat as well as phone on
If that's not OK then the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) would be my own next choice, they too have web chat if you do not want to talk voice to voice
They can both be a real comfort to talk/chat with and are sensible, experienced and very useful
A third thing -sorry about the long list -is that to get the best out of this Forum it is a big help if you have your own thread where people can notice you and message you -this thread is very general and packed with others so it's harder to see you
To make your own thread you can look at the instructions here:
Any hassles please sing out here
Can I ask if you have considered getting medical assistance? I kept on going down until I had competent medical help, then that started me back to a better time. It can start wiht the Kids Help Line (1800 55 1800) if you are under 25 -they have a chat line too, or by a visit to a GP, setting ou