We're so sorry to hear how much pain you are feeling right now. It is not easy to take this step in being so open and honest about your thoughts and feelings, but we are so glad that you reached out here tonight. It sounds like this has been a really difficult journey for you, and we can hear that you're feeling quite defeated and drained from trying to find the right support. This sounds incredibly challenging and we can understand that you're feeling let down by the system, and feeling stuck. Please know that you are in a safe, supportive place here where you can talk about what you are going through with our wonderful community members who really do understand what you're feeling right now. Many reading will have similar experiences and may be able to offer their insight and support. We are also checking in with you privately with some extra support.
We'd really urge you not to give up in finding the right support that works for you. Sometimes mental health practictioners with particular skill sets, and even particular personalities, can meet your needs and expectations in different ways. During overwhelming moments like these, reaching out to our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) is so important, and you can call as often as you need, at any time of the night or day.
You're not alone here, and we hope that you keep checking in and let us know how you're doing, whenever you feel up to it.