Hi and welcome to BB Forum Universling, (I like your username)
The best way to find a therapist is to call the Mental Health Hotline in your state. They can look up people in your area and, let you talk a while about what's going on as they're very experienced and professional consultants.
My diagnosis is complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) so I truly understand what you're going through. Finding support both offline and here on the forum will help turn things around, I can assure you.
Learning how to navigate this site takes practice. It's the same for all of us when we first come on board. Please don't let this deter you from posting or getting to know our members ok. We're a caring, like-minded bunch who are here to support you. When you write about your life, others will benefit from your words and experiences too.
We all learn quite quickly that it's therapeutic to support others while we're recovering. Having people to talk with that are going through similar situations means you don't have to feel so alone on your journey.
I wish you well in your search for support and hope things start to improve soon. Looking forward to seeing you back for a chat...