I think this is my first forum post on here. I don't really do it much. I'm 20m, and I have been on an SSRI since 2017, since changed to a different medication, during which I was diagnozed with ADHD by a different psychiatrist and prescribed another medication which gradually increased.
Anyway, I had CFS in my final year of high school (2016) which seems to be recurring every now and again for a couple of weeks, which I believe began to happen just before/ after increasing one of my medications, after which I got really bad constipation which prevented me from continuing with my fitness regimen and also was when I completely stopped practicing music for just over a year.
It was my 5th/ 6th discontinued semester at university (which I do very much want to be going to), and I had managed to get myself totally socially isolated - as I often do - which resulted in my psych giving me a prescription for an antidepressant. I hated it from the get-go: it made me very constipated, lethargic, sleep too long, feel drowsy and generally more stupid, and I just didn't care about things that should make me anxious; it made my life feel like a safety infomercial. He gave me another medication as well, and now I get all kinds of weird spasms/ what feel like palpitations, I can't get my heartrate much above 170 (about a 30bpm reduction despite being generally fittest I've ever been) without fading, and I just have no passion.
I was going to university though (more important than the actual work), so I figured I'd keep it up for the semester: Obviously COVID-19 destroyed any therapeutic benefit; I have now recessed heavily into depression; dropping many subjects, not knowing what day it is, waking up after noon... I'm finding it harder to focus to get already overdue assignments in, and I feel little use of the meds now, especially given how constipated, foggy and tired I am - half my time is spent waiting on the toilet because of gut pain and the other trying to focus my eyes to read. My weight literally fluctuates by like 5kg throughout some days.
I've decided to taper off, I recall a 3-4 day period to reduce my dose by a small amount. I'm hoping this will be fine, but I'm now worried about side-effects (like fibromyalgia or anger).