I have PTSD, I have an NDIS plan as I’m unable to work because of it.
Ive been unwell for around 8 years, with multiple in patient stays.
I’ve been doing well up to around March then it’s been very up down due to numerous triggers & general stressors.
As a result I’ve also had problems with insomnia to varying degrees. The last week there were some nights I had no sleep at all.
I had my long standing appointment with my psychiatrist on Monday & told her the situation.
She sounded frustrated & asked had it not occurred to me to ring her for an earlier appointment rather than wait so long. It hadn’t. I don’t want to be a burden & will try my absolute best to manage on my own. She prescribed a medication to assist sleep. It didn’t work & she didn’t follow up with me like she said.
At this point my husband is concerned. I can’t function. I’m not sleeping or eating so he rings on Tuesday but hears nothing back.
So I decide to skip some daytime meds in the hope of finally getting sleep. And voila it works, I sleep some. Not much but at least it’s something.
Wednesday morning I have appointment with my psychotherapist who works in the same place as my psychiatrist.
although this is Victoria where we are currently in lockdown
I sob over this FaceTime appointment. Therapist says she is emailing my psychiatrist to ask whether I should have a hospital admission & whether I should be skipping medication.
My therapist says don’t worry either me or your psychiatrist will call you back or if we can’t get a hold of you we will call your husband. But we will call you today.
Its nearly 11pm & no ones called.
Is it me? Am I doing something wrong? I’m constantly told I should reach out more but when I do I get nothing.
The whole situation feels so hopeless for me.