I’m feeling overwhelmed by my situation and relieved to open up about it.
Its weird to say this but I’m fairly new to mental illness (4 years) I’ve always had empathy towards anyone who has it, however I now know if you haven’t experienced it, you have absolutely no clue as to how debilitating it can become. I also now know that only kindness towards others will prevail in these circumstances.
I had severe injury at work which I had 2 surgeries, and the lack of emotional support is crushing. There are indeed systems in place and all looks legit on paper, they even have a mental health system in place but I’m a person and if you’re not listening to what I’m saying and acting on that then what’s the point.? They are Just ticking boxes. How can a Heath and Wellbeing Advisor help you while listening to the insurance company as well?
I confronted her about this among other issues and she said “I don’t know how to help you” The manipulations, micromanaging, mind games are beyond. All of this leads to self doubt, feeling like I’m a liar, constant negative thoughts, feeling like I’m going to loose everything because I’m the little person and they are a company.
I recently saw a program on SBS,it was titled “hurt at work”.
These stories were like mine. I felt sad, elated, angry, doubtful all at the same time. They looked worn out by the system with no choice but to hire a solicitor.
My anxiety and depression have been extreme at times, don’t know how I made it out some days or nights. I feel paranoid that I’m being watched and recorded all the time. Even though I’m doing things that I have been told I can do, or at least try to do. I feel like I’m doing something wrong by them. I’ve become a totally different person. And I don’t like myself, actually hate myself most of the time.
I always need convincing that I’m not doing anything wrong.
I can’t work much, nor do I want to where I’m at, and I feel a lot of it is psychological due to the way I was treated right after the injury, but I’m also in pain and scared to hurt myself further.
I feel like a failure and a liar, Before my injury, doing overtime helping different stations I was valued. That all goes away when you’re injured. And like it never existed.
They just don’t get it.
Calling Beyond Blue helps..