The warmest of welcomes to you Wanttobehappyagain. I'm so glad you came here :)
Being a Melbourne gal, it's taken 6 lockdowns for me to realise, throughout the whole process, the various levels of 'mind altering' that such lockdowns can bring about. I don't believe the state government fully considered how incredibly mind altering this was going to be for a lot of people.
I think while we can live through mild levels of suppression, oppression and depression, it's when the levels are high that it starts to really impact us on so many levels, so intensely. While not being able to go anywhere significant, not be able to socialise to the degree that we're used to and not be able to do a whole stack of other things that help us maintain a healthy sense of self, we may have come to suppress the natural adventurer in us, the natural channeler of high vibes through social contact and so much more. So, it can kind of be like losing your true sense of self. When that happens, it's easy to feel the challenges that come with the revelation 'I don't know who I am anymore'. Even a long term lack of the regular hits of dopamine that can come with a sense of adventuring can throw our chemistry out to the point where it can feel depressing. So, mentally, physically and even on a natural or soulful level, everything just feels so off. If you're a sensitive person, this comes with greater challenge.
To be sensitive doesn't necessarily mean we're 'delicate'. It simply means we can sense. You can sense your challenges, your intolerance, your chemistry, your nervous system, your thoughts, the nature or energy of others, oppression, suppression and the list goes on. If you 'a sensitive' (aka 'a feeler'), you'll feel it all. I do believe lockdowns have ramped up our ability to feel and what we're feeling doesn't feel good, far from it. The challenge becomes about how to feel our way out of lockdowns.
Would you say you're a sensitive person?