Welcome to Beyond Blue and well done for reaching out.
Also, congratulations on starting a new job! It certainly can be a bit scary starting out in a new job, because you don't really know the people, or what the 'dynamics' are in that workplace. It takes time to get to know you co-workers. Just as it takes time for them to get to know you. One thing that helps me to feel a little more 'comfortable' (for want of a better word?) is knowing that they don't really know me either. Just take it one day at a time.
As for the forum you found via your google search, I suggest you go back in your browsing history. As long as you haven't deleted your browsing history, then it should still be in there! If you are using Mozilla Firefox, like me, then at the top in the menu (where it says 'file' 'Edit' 'View' etc.) there's a menu option that says 'History'.
In the meantime, you are welcome here as much as you like! Take care. I'll be thinking of you. xo