Hello Annika and a wave to Summer Rose
Thank you for your lovely reply. I always feel honoured I can help and support someone.
I did not know the meaning of a white rose. Thank you for telling me.
Long term hurt can resurface at the most inconvenient time, although I guess it is always inconvenient. Getting help to finally lay it to rest will be good. It may take some time but knowing you are on the right path is consoling and gives you hope.
Long term stress does all sorts of unpleasant things to our bodies. Something happening in one part always affects the whole body. The good part is knowing you can get over it. Reading books can be a tremendous help. Do you have a favourite corner where you can sit with your book and a cuppa? I recently started a course which I thought was for one year and then discovered it was four years. I have made an area with a table in my home where I keep all the materials including a book rest as some of the books are heavy. Always good that I can leave everything there without the need to put it away. Helps me to get into my reading etc without needing to set up every time.
Summer Rose, I love the idea of sitting on the deck to watch the night sky. It certainly puts our difficulties in perspective. As I live in Qld I need to make sure I do not get carried away in pieces by the mosquitoes but it is lovely to listen to the quiet.
Annika, have you read Coyote Wisdom or Coyote Healing both written by Lewis Mehl-Madrona. I have enjoyed these. The course I am doing will is understanding the bible. We have started with the Old Testament.
I tell myself that any water activity would be good for me and help increase my fitness but it's a bit cold for me. I do go to an exercise class every week which is helping me get fitter. Of course if I did the exercises at home as well I would get fit much faster. Sigh.
As Summer Rose has said, you do not need to tell any of the ladies in your aqua class anything about your difficulties. Let any friendship develop quietly. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy as the caring side of out characters wants to offer help. If you can stand back a little and observe it will be easier for you.
I hope you have a pleasant day.