Hello Smiles, and a warm welcome to the site.
Life has been difficult, especially last year and sometimes anxiety and panic attacks surface for no unexplained reason, making it hard to cope with the situation we're in and having to deal with our kids who may not understand what we're going through.
There are people including myself who would like to talk with you, and please remember that we ourselves have had to struggle with our own type of depression, so don't be afraid in asking or telling us what you are having difficulty with.
I've been on the site for many years and want to help you.
Best wishes.
Geoff.