This is my first time on here so bare with me ...I'm pretty sure i've had OCD for a while as i find myself having to make sure the taps are turned off even though i know they are and to continuously check that i have turned something off or locked my gate when i've already checked it like 5 times. However during the past 4 days i've been having intrusive thoughts about hurting myself and others close to me which i know i would NEVER do , it started happening after recently i had a fall out with my friends and that has been giving me alot of anxiety . I notice the thoughts tend to happen more when i'm alone or when i'm left to think about things and mainly happen when i'm at home. I was diagnosed with panic disorder a few years ago as well by my doctor and i was on medication for that for a couple years until i started to get memory loss so i went off the meds (gradually) as it was making my mind foggy . Last year was the first year i've been off them and i haven't really had any panic attacks like i use to but due to these thoughts now i keep getting anxious that they'll never go away and scared that i could even think about something like that when it's not something i'd ever want to EVER think about . I've been reading forums and it's made me feel a little better as i have felt so alone these past few days but i was wondering how to overcome this . i have tried to see counsellors in the past for anxiety but i could never get through it as i hate talking about my feelings and every time i see a counsellor i just break down and cry and they always ask me why and i never know .