just after i turned 17 my parents paid for night uni but i had a wifee, 2cats , a flat and 2 jobs.
and the uni lost out after only 7 weeks. almost 20 years later when i do rarely speak to ma'
she ALWAYS reminds me what she spent. so wether implied or not. parents who pay for uni have an
inferred idea that you are going to pay back their dividend. i say: " ...things i cant say on this forum",
about parents who lord it over their children wether they succeed ,fail or drop out.
open dialogue can be good if your parents are open to that but mine just tightened the knuckle screws.
sorry this wasn't meant to be dark. what i was trying to say: that it wasn't until years later
when my friends started going to uni and i joined uni culture that i found it to be the funnest
most inclusive group of people i've ever been around and sometimes you have to take a deep
breath and look at it from outside your own head and realize the possibilities. join groups,
go to the uni bar, local gigs, find out what people around you are doing and join them.
all that pressure in your head is imaginary and can be set aside until deadlines.
but right now there are 20'000 watts of bass in a bar somewhere near you,
going off around a bunch of people your age, who study just like you. you just think they
don't because they are smiling but you can smile too. you don't even need a reason.
i try to randomly smile at atleast one person who looks sadder than me when i leave the house.
it's not easy, but usually i just think about uni (not even joking) i'm goin back to uni after the cert i'm doing.
as the son of two doctors it has also always been part of my lifeplan that one day i would get uni education.