Welcome, I’m glad Sophie_M was there
to give you a couple of very good suggestions, the Kids Help Line Chat is very
popular and sensible, though there might be a little wait as lots of people use
OK, so you started to feel life pointless,
did not feel up to school and had panic attacks. That’s pretty hard to bear.
Can I ask if you went to the doctor
at that stage and were tested for anxiety and depression? I guess you must have
told your family something to be allowed
I’ve been to eight, and changing over,
even without all the hassles of a depressive state, is pretty tough. The
existing kids all seem to be in groups and you feel excluded, plus you no longer
had the friends and support you used to have in this new environment. Probably not even the classes you enjoyed.
Having tried to make friends and found them toxic would have felt terrible.
No wonder you are lonely, anyone would be.
You do need to talk to someone, shy
or not. As Sophie says Headspace or The
Kids Hep Line are good starting points unless you have someone else you would
rather talk to.
You are not causing a problem; you
have a problem and talking about it here -as a start -is exactly right. True
other people need help, but so do you, and you will not be taking anyone’s
place by getting assistance yourself.
Life can be a whole lot better. If
you can get your depressive state under control with support, then you will be
able to cope with the downsides of your new school better, and may even find
activities and people you like.
Is there anyone in your family you can talk to (or give a note)