Hi there HITC
Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you so much for coming here and providing your post.
I’m really sorry to hear of the struggles that you’ve been facing and while it’s great that you’ve been trying to speak with your parents on this, it is not good to hear of the responses that you’ve received each time you’ve tried to reach out.
Ok, so you’re still at school, so is there a school counsellor or a teacher who you feel able to talk to about certain things – in regard to your anxiety and depression?
My son (now 17yo) had some tough times during the last couple of years, but last year in particular and he was supported really well through his school and in particular a “House” teacher as well as the school counsellor. I find it awesome of you that you were willing to open up and talk to your parents about it, because our son pretty much shut us out of his troubles and so for us, it was very frustrating. We wanted to be there for him and were so open for him to share and talk – I think largely because of how I suffer from my own mental illness, it makes me more receptive to these kinds of things. At least he knew that, which was important.
But he received good support from his school and this year he’s going much better.
Do you think your school may be able to offer some kind of support for you in this way? Another question, do you have any uncles or aunts who may be close to you, who you feel you might be able to share with?
You said there are three children – I’m guessing the 3rd child is the youngest, so is possibly not received the treatment that you are from your parents?
I’ve heard of instances like these before as well, only with the children slightly older and where the two siblings were able to talk to each other about things, issues, etc and from there, they were able to take it to the parents, together. Again, I’m not fully sure of your ages, but do you think that your sister might be old enough (mature enough) to help “you” at this time?
I really hope that I’ve said something that has been useful to you, and I would really love to hear back from you.