Welcome to Beyond Blue and well done for reaching out.
You know I've heard it said many times that artists are their own worst critics. We consistently compare ourselves (more our insides) to others (more their outsides) and in that unfair comparison, we come off second best. But you know what? It's an UNFAIR comparison. AND an unequal one too. think about this; if you have ever, even just one time, pasted a smile on your face on a day when you were not actually feeling happy, don't you think that others too could, and likely would, do the same? And if that's the case, is it not therefore possible that they too are also at times thinking their own artwork is not up to scratch?
I was literally days away from self-publishing a book before it dawned on me that I was actually a writer! I have always enjoyed writing, but could not bring myself to actually use the title of 'writer' even though I had had smaller articles published before. And I never really validated anything I did as 'writing' until I published my book. Even here, doing this, is me being a writer. I just love any excuse to tap away on a keyboard. And if I can help others in that process, what a bonus that is!
I am also a keen scrapbooker, photographer (won a first prize in a local show once too!), and of late have dabbled in a little bit of acrylic painting. And I am still my own worst critic on the bad days. But days aren't bad ones every day and I have learnt to be more gentle with myself at those times. It's okay too to have a break from things, and even to change tactic along the way. Sometimes a fork in the road can lead to a whole new adventure!
So my suggestion is simply this; stop being your own worst critic! And stop also, if you are, comparing yourself to others. We all wear our own unique shoes and have our own unique fingerprints, and yours are just perfect the way they are!
Anyway, I don't really know what else to say. I am no professional counselor or anything that's for sure. Just a fellow human being who has her own up and down days. I do hope I have helped a little bit? In the meantime, you can come back here as much as you like.
Take care, I'll be thinking of you. xo