Hey i'm kinda nervous about this and like in all honesty i think turning to the internet is not amazing but i don't know what else to do.......
OK so basically I think i'm ok at socialising and all that stuff, but people have just kept turning me away and bullying me and being horrible.
I want to just go stuff them but I can't and like i'm christian so i pray and pray and go to church but part of me still believes them.
I have PTSD because I've spent years and years in hospitals and then i got a brain injury in an operation and no one believed me, and then my school was rlly bad for my mind etc. Four years later, I'm ok physically. Mentally..... not so much.
I've never been one to self harm, but recently I started. Not majorly, but it's happened.
Also, i moved schools last year, and people in my year weren't nice. I made friends with a bunch of seniors, and that was cool. Then, today, one of them came to school and was rlly cold towards me. My only other longstanding friend from last year (from that group of seniors) is doing medicine at uni and is super busy and i haven't seem him in forever, but i can't rlly see him that much cause i'm like 4 years younger.
i hate school. i want to get out of here as soon as i can. but i can't. i've had a few friendships that have all gone bad. i'm feeling rlly lonely.
I have anxiety and ocd (pure o) and i've had depressive episodes. This is so yuck i hate it
I just want friends but people keep thinking i'm weird and maybe i am. i dunno anymore.
i dunno why i'm even doing this but like if someone sees this and replies it'll be nice.