Hello Dear Deltius..
Please don’t be sorry, It’s okay and doesn’t matter if someone else has posted the same in the past..
Firstly I just want to say, that you are never too old to appear on stage...you are young..only 21..
My late husband played in a group, up until the age of around 55..He never took a music lesson in his life, could read music, he played “by ear”..maybe your friend has the same ability as my late husband...he played lead guitar..
Deltius, You sound like you have a huge passion for playing music, The thing is and it’s true that there will always someone that is better at doing things then other people...no matter what it is...
I think that the best way to get more motivation for yourself is to just enjoy your journey through this special phase in your life...by thinking of your friends advancement, you are taking away from you, the enjoyment of learning and playing music...It’s the journey of learning and playing that should be for you a fun time...
Keep trying and keep playing..Something my hubby used to do, was put on a tape...now it’s cds and play along with it...not the same, he would play what he felt in his heart...
You have a dream Deltius, follow that dream with all your heart and soul...Please don’t ever give up your dream because you feel that your friend is better then you...Why not get together and play your guitars together..it would be both fun and maybe a learning experience for you...
Talk here anytime you feel up to it..
My kindest thoughts dear Deltius,
Grandy..