Heres a question for all you amazing people on this site.
Do you find yourselves coming up with crazy ideas in your head? Coming up with situations that couldn't possibly be true but convincing yourself otherwise, cooking up crazy and untrue thoughts.
I find myself doing this alot. And it can stem from 1 (ex:a friends in a bad mood its my fault and they hate me) to 5(ex: hotel shampoo in drawer, your cheating) then to 10 (ex: my partner has killed and theirs a body in my back yard)
After awhile (days..weeks..etc) I will end realizing how crazy I am and laughing.. but at the time it seems so real and believable.. I concoct situations in my head, but why? Because im only hurting myself in the process?
The smallest thing can set me off on some sort of rampage. .
I wanted to write some recent detailed examples but after writting I erased as iits just too hard to explain, so lets just stick with my most recent was i was seriously convinced my partner killed, even looking in my backyard convinced ill find something.
I had no reason to think any of these things as true as my partner is in no way like that.. it just stemmed from being anxious and escalated
I realized after awhile its all in my head but im sick of this ongoing cycle of crazyness..
I dont just think these things though you see, I will mmake anything and everything proof of this (in my head) and be completely convinced.
Usally when I get in these "states" no matter where I am or who iI'm with ill run away such as moving house, towns, jobs etc...untill next time
Oh these "states" can also be convincing myself of good things too
Aaaaaanyway- just looking for some in site and or others experiences.
Ps.. good side being when I come to my sences I am always able to have a good laugh at my stupidity. :)