Mark amd Sleepy thanks for sharing your experiences and for your hinesty.
I find it hard to pick two opposite emotions as for me it changes. Most regular posters here know I was affected by the fires then not long after covid came.
Recently I have been feeling some belated grief for my loss and feelings of no one understands me.. I cant really tell anyone because people say that was 2 years ago are'nt you recovered yet.
Having read many of the posts on various covid threads I know people are suffering from fear, from being numb, from changes from being separated from others and much more. I can sense their pain from their words.
I feel I have little control over my life as I had it all worked out then that was change in less than an hour.
I also feel isolated as I moved to a new community but really have not felt I belong here despite being a volunteer and meeting people.
I do feel hopeful as I have several grandchildren all born during the pandemic. I am hopeful but worry about their future,
Sleepy I am sorry you feel numb. We are listening to your voice. You write in an open and honest way and you share your vulnerabilities.
No one is expected to feel grateful or lucky. This thread is about acknowledging the emotions people have.
I feel confused at times .