You were always there for me.
Through thick and thin and wow we sure had some troubles.
When I was so young, the amount of times I cried for you when you had to leave the hospital that I was in; you left and headed off in the dark, to catch a bus to where your parents lived.
So many trips to Sydney back and forth, for operations, for check-ups – all to see how my lip was recovering and determining for when the next operation would be. 10 operations in all – can’t count the amount of trips to Sydney; but you were there with me every step of the way.
You also had those two awful bouts of breast cancer, together with all the treatment.
Then Dad with his two heart operations – for the 2nd one, I went to Sydney to be with you (and Dad) .
Every time Dad was admitted to hospital, you’d be there with him, by his bed-side.
In 1991, you had to bury your beloved son – which I know you (we) never got over; how could we? Something just impossible to do and from that tragedy, that killed off so much within all of us. Your son, my brother – there could have been 2 drownings that day, but oh no, I was able to save myself, but I couldn’t save my best mate, my bro; drowned at the age of 29. Yet you never blamed me, you always stood by me and tried your best to make sure I was ok. I wasn’t – but then, neither were you (or Dad).
Move to 2007 and we lost Dad to leukaemia – and you were then without your life partner; your soul mate – Dad.
You were a beautiful couple. I cannot ever recall a fight between the two of you – Dad the laid-back farmer, and you were his wonderful wife, our wonderful Mum, who had to struggle through farm hardships and never having much money, but as kids, we didn’t want for nothing.
Mum, it’s coming up to a year since you’ve gone. 365 days; almost what they call a year in our human existence – that you’ve no longer been with us. I cannot tell you the amount of times during this time that I have wanted to call you, to talk to you, to say “hi”, to see “how you are”?
I write this now with tears streaming down my face.
I miss you Mum.
I want to ring you – I want to say “Hi” and I want to tell you I love you. But I can’t do that and I will never be able to do that again.
I just feel so sad and empty.
I love you Mum – I will love you forever.
I miss you Mum and I will never ever stop missing you.