Thank you for your latest response.
I hear you and I know what you mean – where you feel that talking to strangers can be more comforting (or perhaps easier to do) than being able to unload to others who are closer to you.
Also when someone experiences such tragedy, it DOES change you – it simply has to. Now for you, the familiarity feelings not being there would ring true, with also your family being overseas and also some of your friends also.
With people saying what they said to you – I realise that they were probably trying to say things to help, but those kinds of things don’t generally help. I mean, how can someone know what to say in such a situation – unless they’ve been there and they’ve experienced it. And then, it could still be different, as we all are individual and so we respond to different situations differently. I hope that made sense in what I was trying to get across there.
Please also with regard to coming here and posting, if you feel ok to do so, then this can be a very helpful place. To be able to unload and write and know that you’ll receive care and support and sometimes there might be some helpful advice as well.
If you haven’t already, it “might” be worth trying to make an appointment with your doctor – if you feel comfortable in doing so, to get some professional assistance as well. Just a thought.