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Topic: (Trigger warning) PTSD after being stabbed

  1. Guest_08B8CB20
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    27 January 2017 in reply to MarkJT

    Hi Mark kazzland crew

    Yeh your write but im thinking there are no words i can use that are not going to leed her down a path off pain, after carefull consideration maybe its best for her health to be ashamed of me rather than everyone in her family she will see it all for what it is when she passes anyway and if im write she will she i had to make the most unselfish dessission in my life and that is how strong my faith is anyway i dont want to think about it anymore it has been doing my head in.

    Im having big dramas with my ankle i pretty sure its broken i will be going to my doctor on monday get checked out

    This without any doubt is the most challenging my life has become committed to $500 fortnight no car the ankle omi stabbing councilor centerlink but im somehow feeling not to bad but every now and then the reality kicks in i just really do believe things have to start improving it the only way to think in the situation i find myself in

    Thanks everyone

    Jason

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    27 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Jase, yes this most be the most challenging part of your life but just think about how far you have come in the past few months. You will get through this period with the knowledge that you have gained and coping mechanisms that you have put in place.

    You have the connection with your Opi, do you think you will have the same with your Omi when she passes (which hopefully not be for a long time). I like how you have so much respect for your faith.

    Mark.

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    27 January 2017 in reply to MarkJT

    Hi Mark and crew

    Hope you all had a great Australia day

    Yes i no i will have same connection with my Omi one day its inevitable we will all be together one day its makes me emotional thinking about it gona have to stop talking about it it tears me up got to go now

    Bye talk soon

    Jason

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    28 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Morning Jason - just saying hi mate, letting you know I'm thinking of you and hoping today is a good one for you.

    Glad you're going back to the doc about that ankle.

    Cheers my friend

    Kaz

    xx

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    28 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason~

    First off the ankle - a nuisance and you are maybe going to have a splint and a stick, I think you said in the past you are a pretty quick healer - hope so.

    It's a pretty noble thing, leaving your Omi to think badly of you to save her grief. I guess the idea does not sit that well with me because it does you an injustice, and life has thrown enough of those at you already.

    Is there anyway you could get her to 'leave the door open' just a little, perhaps writing and telling her these is more to it than she knows, and that she'll get the full story in the fullness of time?

    I know you've thought deeply about it. Either way you have my respect.

    Croix

  6. Guest_08B8CB20
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    28 January 2017 in reply to Croix

    Good morning to you Croix,Kazzl,Mark and crew

    First off thanks for all the suggestions, i have though long and hard about what i should do, and Croix it does not sit well with me either, but im trying to get my no good evil cousin to explain to my Omi him self that he is evil no good lied about meto her and my Omi actually the whole family is no good and we have all tried our hardest to turn you off your first grandson jason.

    I have the ball rolling and people can not turn a blind eye to me findings im going to destroy them financial everyone in my family other than my Omi then maybe i will be able to find out where she is and save her and look after her.

    Im only making people aware off what they have been turning a blind eye to$$ ,or the are genuine, in not knowing but im,doing it in a way that they obliged to act.and wil lfind themselves on the wrong side of the law if they dont..

    Told you i been thinking off ways to see my omi pluss i get great pleasure in telling that evil family what they need to do or im pulling another card i think they think im bluffing , they will soon realise im not then there going to have to do a recount how many cards did he say he has pulled so farand then he keeps going on about the trump card

    There getting it and i will find my Omi cause i make them aware she is inocent and been brainwashed

    Regards Jason. the natural person

  7. Guest_08B8CB20
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    28 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Good night everyone

    Got my foot getting looked at tomorrow

    car crash seams to have knocked the stabbing dreams out off my head, but my thoughts are now all related around my Omi, have i used the right tactics?.i ask myself i dont no. im now regreting the fact that he might tell her now and thats going yo sress her out big time .what to do i dont no.

    talk soon

    Jason

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    28 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Jason

    She may be stronger than you know.

    Good night

    Croix

  9. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to Croix

    Hi Croix

    She is over 90Years old. all i can do is now believe she is strong .its like Opa tells me that thats one off the things my Opa is trying to guide me on undersranding!?

    GOODNIGHT

    Jason

  10. 1113
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    29 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jacezz,

    I'm just popping in to say hello.

    We haven't formally meet yet but I it would be my honour to get to know you better.

    Peace

    Matt

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    29 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Morning Jason - just want to wish you well for your appointment. Hope they can sort your ankle and foot out mate.

    You know, it occurs to me that perhaps your Opa visits your Omi too? You can't know of course, but perhaps she already understands, but can't communicate it to you. Like Croix said, maybe she is stronger - and knows more - than you realise. A positive way to look at things mate. As they say, the truth will always out. You might feel she is being brainwashed now, but that won't be the case when she eventually joins your Opa in a better place.

    Just my thoughts mate - I guess to try to ease the urgency for you. There are things in this life we just cannot control my friend. And we have to let the universe do its thing.

    Take care Jason, hope your day goes well mate - here for you.

    Kaz

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  12. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Hi 1113 ,Matt and crew

    Matt you used the word piece in only the people who try to rule us knew the meaning off thet one 5 letter word, what a difference that would make to our world, the change is is speeding up now the wheel is finally heading down the path towards piece and harmony i seen it when i died three times things are all coming together emagine all they people in power that have been killing inocent people will be in jail within ten years including 95% off the royal family gona have to start building alot more jails or is there plenty of space in the existing ones once we remove all the inocent people that are in there because they did not pay there fines???? Im more inclined to think towards the latter it is a vision i saw.

    Im determined to be partly responsible to share my insite even if the evil want to have another crack at silencing me , Good luck when i know my Opa has my back!!!!!!!!

    Kazzl i already think what you have told me i just got to keep on plucking the weeds (negative thoughts) from my garden cause my garden is starting to look a whole lot healthier when i do but as we all no weeds love fertile ground and will alway try to take over , hope you understand my analogy hope i spelt that word right

    Have a nice pieceful day everyone

    Love is the word

    Love what you do and everything about you all

    Jason

  13. 1113
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    29 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason,

    Thanks for the reply buddy. I have those negative thoughts too. Constantly weeding mine. I've got your back too.

    True about the world too. I'm positive your Opa has your back too.

    Love is the word. Perfect word too.

    Matt

  14. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Hi Matt

    I like it very much your understanding ☺😊😅😆

    If we all got one anothers back we should start up a forum called (we have your back now lets get humanity back) im on a mission to make a change and its gona upset some so called people in power they are evil and im ready to take them on there is nothing they can do to me that i can not overcome. kiddy fiddlers want to start preparing, for there about to face there karma, thats just one area off change that collectively i no we are responsible to change we the good people ate there karma Opa tells me thats how it works they above manipulate us to make the change, but most are to affraid, (to much to lose) we one day will die so materialisticly we lose everything anyway💰💰💸 other than the differences we make everyone should no what i no its a secret government no but they got it all wrong they have abused it and then there is greed😈 , i want to take with me when i die at least i tried to make a possitive change 🎶piece and love

    Have a fantastic day all

    ✌💜

  15. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Hi Matt

    1113 your one number of my number

    I should be 1013

    Look at the nose off my surfboard profile thats my design lucky13 for some.

    Actually it was friday the 13th i died 3 times you no what kept me alive , it was my enemy i never closed my eyes again for 20 mins i dont think i blinked was beautiful violet light piecefull calming euphoric, so i needed to dig deep if i wanted to survive this injury i chanelledin on revenge and some othet thoughts like i cant die like this were are my friends so the revenge was so profound and real inside off me i used to breath and slow down my heart beat plus my Opa but the thing is that revenge will make you ill if i carry on with so now i forgive sincerely to yourself and i now thankfull because i used him as a thought to save my life so i forgive and im greatful

    How many enemies do you think i have?

    I got your back to and others on this forum and all other good people in this world ✌

    Jason

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  16. 1113
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    29 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason,

    The surf board is so cool.

    I'm pretty tired now had big day today. I will check in on you tomz. Stay well.

    ✌👌👍

    Matt.

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    29 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason,

    Can you youtube this for me.

    Kryon 2016 december - soul recovery.

    Meditation: put in your earphones and relax as best as you can. Believe in it. Lay down. Believe in it.

    I believe part of your soul is stuck in another reality. This is shamic mindless. It's very common for people who have had your issues. Disassociation from your soul can happen from pain nde or being revived.

    I usually can read emotions in words but some of your words are missing. So you need to fo this shamic mindfulness to get it back. That will slow your thoughts down for me to be able to read them.

    If while you are doing this you have a dream....go with it. Try to rember what it was. Then tomorrow we can chat better.

    You may need to do this every night. It only brings little bits of your soul back at a time.

    I'm starting to listen to it now and see if i dream.

    Did you write today?

    Goodnight bro

    Matt.

  18. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Hi Matt

    Thats correct some off the words are missing things happen for all different reasons one could be the phone im using

    But after dieing 3 times it would be total ignorance for me to think you can understand my point off view and i think in all due respect its time for me to become my respectful to my findings and truely honor my Opa who i now 100% has my back

    Peace and love

    Jason

  19. Guest_08B8CB20
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    29 January 2017 in reply to Kazzl

    Hello Kazzl and crew

    Kazzl first of all i would like to thank you for your post and you make sense and i hear you, and hope one day i get to meet you and all the other wonderful people i have communicated with on this forum , nice work beautiful!!!☺

    Good night everyone

    Peace and love✌💜

    Jason

  20. 1113
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    30 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason,

    I hoped you slept well.

    I am going to check in on you later to see how your dream went.

    Peace and equality

    Matt.

  21. Guest_08B8CB20
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    30 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Good morning Matt and Crew

    Im a little puzzled as to why my one off my posts to you did not make it on the forum but im leaving things were they are ,basically i was asking you have you died before?Because 3 times i have!

    Im not going to repeat word for word what i said , maybe there is a reason it is not going on the forum ,Yes i listen to kryron, has he died 3 times ,my friend there is no dispear or fear!!no one has any idea were im at.

    In actual fact im cancelling my apointment with 360 mental heath that was my dream!!!!! because i now they will not understand me, try to brainwash me, and im very comfortable were im at and do not need anyone frustrating me.

    I told you my Opa is guiding me part of my dream was my Opa sitting in the passenger seat off a brand new Audi SQ7 it was all black and we drove straight passed the doors Off 360 mental heath he kept looking at me shaking his head no no no then he disappeared and so did the car i found myself walking back home i just woke up .

    I have not had a dream of being stabbed for 11 nights or more

    Have a good day Jason

  22. Guest_08B8CB20
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    30 January 2017 in reply to 1113

    Good morning Matt , Kazzl,Mark, Croix and crew

    Hope you all have a pieceful poductive day thankyou all and to my newest friend Matt

    Piece and love always

    Jason ✌💜

  23. Guest_08B8CB20
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    30 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi matt

    I notice you changed you picture profile very nice

    Maybe i should replace mine with a shovel or spear i think i will change mine to a rainbow check this out

    Peace and love

    Jason✈✈✈✈✈✈

    👌✌👍💜💕

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    30 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    HIya Jason - I like your new picture. One day I hope you might post a picture of one of your rainbows that you make for the kids. I think they would be beautiful.

    Did you get to see your doctor about your ankle? How's it feeling today? How are you healing othewise - aches and pains getting better I hope.

    Don't worry about a post not getting through mate - it happens to all of us, and we've all had posts edited too. It's nothing to worry about. Just keep posting.

    I hope you day has been OK. Can't say mine was very productive. Far too hot to do anything. Are you managing to keep cool over there in the west?

    Cheers mate - I'll look in tomorrow.

    Kaz

    xx

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    30 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Gday Jase, like the new pic and rainbows, what is it about rainbows that have captured your imagination?

    I know you are probably not wanting to hear this but my advice would be to stick to that appointment with 360. What have you got to lose by going? It will only cost you, what maybe an hour to two of your life? Clearly it is your decision but that is what I would be doing.

    As Kazzl is asking...hows the injuries going?

    Cheers mate - hope the surf has been great.

    Mark.

  26. Guest_08B8CB20
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    30 January 2017 in reply to MarkJT

    Hello Kazzl and mark

    My profile picture is of the last two i did for my best buddy's daughter the big one is the on that was put on her out door swing slide etc set, and the smaller one is the one that she can give to a friend of her choice

    I cancelled with 360 mental health they are government, and i dont trust them!!! im getting counciling from a organization which is non government i also have a advocate to act on mybehalf as far as centerlink is concerned as no one is getting back to me from centerlink i told them im appealing dsp they said i cant do thst as my circumstances hsve not changed, i can just see myself getting arrested again when im well enough to walk down there as i just dont get throught after waiting for hour or so on hold im sick of the system its so not right for you he first time in one year i have a roof over my head now its like they are trying to make it impossible for me to stay here i cant survive on whats left over aftet paying my rent my car is a write of so i cant sleep on back off my ute anymore cant take anything from my ute untill i pay the towing fee $550 plus its now incurring storage fees im loosing it im so wild inside i feel im gona explode then there is every thing else your fully aware off been waiting all day for a phone call from my doctor whom i have left 3 messages to call me back in regard to my ankle no phone call My social worker at centerlink has left numerous calls for him to call her so she says she was ment to contact me every couple days to check in on me have not heard from her in over a week, this is why i cant wait for my advocate to start doing what i have authorized to do .

    Its all becoming a absolute nightmare i have had enough of anything to do with government there no good

    ✌💜jason

  27. Guest_08B8CB20
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    30 January 2017 in reply to MarkJT

    Hi everyone

    Im just getting on with it fractured or not never going to a doctor again in my life couldnt care less what is wrong with me, waited all afternoon for phone call from the gp who i have seen 27 times in last 13 months over everyone

    Im just about out off credit so if you dont here from me in 2 weeks dont worry soon as i get my centerlink i will top up with credit

    Bye for now

    Jason✌💜

  28. Croix
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    31 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Dear Jason~

    I hope you had a good night - no bad dreams.

    I'm afraid I have to disagree with you about cancelling your 360 appointment. I think it is a good thing to go and you may well benefit. I'm sure you are able to look at what is said there and decide if there is anything you disagree with - I really doubt that there will be.

    As Mark says it's only a bit of your time, and could pay off well.

    We don't disagree to be awkward or give you hassles, just because we care you get the best

    Take care mate

    Croix

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    31 January 2017 in reply to Croix

    Morning Jason - hope you're feeling OK today.

    I have to agree with the fellas about your appointment mate - I think you should keep it. You never know what might happen - one word, one idea, one little nudge in the right direction, might just help you.

    My approach with appointments like this is that you listen to everything (truly listen), ask questions, look for the intention behind what's said (is it kindly, meant to help etc), think it over with an open mind and heart, then take away whatever resonates with you and works for you. (Maybe take some notes during the session to read later.)

    That way you remain in control - you take the useful bits and leave the rest without anger or hurt. Treat it as a service to you, which you control, not an imposition.

    But to get what's best out of it for you, you have to really listen and think, with eyes and heart wide open. And I know you can do that because you're a thinker.

    Just my thoughts mate and like Croix said, we just want the best for you.

    Cheers

    Kaz

  30. 1113
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    31 January 2017 in reply to Guest_08B8CB20

    Hi Jason,

    I went to a peace picture.

    I think you need to start to look after yourself better.

    I'm sure that your Opa would want you well.

    Its great to hear you bad dreams have stopped or slowed down a bit.

    I'm sure that getting your foot fixed would help with the disassociation aswell.

    Real pain never helps with mental disorders. Only puts more pressure on you and your life.

    Hope you get back online soon

    Peace

    Matt

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