Thank you for your latest response.
I guess now that you’re home, you can at least settle back a bit – your own home, your own personal environment, and by the sounds of it, for what you’ve accomplished over the last number of days, I would guess you are pleased to be back at your home.
With C going through his own issues of crap and troubles growing up, that was never for you to know that that was going to happen, so you cannot blame yourself for that. I firmly believe, you aren’t to blame for anything. I am throwing all that to the person who is no longer with us, who was the catalyst for it all. If not for him, things would have been so incredibly different.
You yourself, even tried to make things right and better way back in the day, and then you’d end up being hurt physically by this man. He was the one who generated everything. From what you’ve written, it seems to me that your sons are of the same opinion and seem to have opened up somewhat to you.
I really hope for you, from now and beyond, that things will be so much different for you … so much better. You’ve unloaded about the past, which was a very courageous thing to do, and I can’t begin to think how much that would have taken out of you. But in doing that, you’ve lifted the lid on what was covered up, bottle up and hidden for so long and I really believe it’s a very good thing.
As always, please please, do stay with us, keep in contact and keep writing.
Love to hear back from you,