This is another of my 'missing the point' messages to you. Yes those 4+ pages are overwhelming, basically becuse life makes you do so much, and I have confidence in you. Confidence you do not freighter away your energizes on non-essentials, if you judge something necessary then I'd expect it is.
So where does that leave you? -Stressed, depressed, feeling inadequate and overwhelmed.
When you can't change life you need to change you. You read before what I do, unashamedly retreat my thoughts to a calm place where wind and rain and a view of the turbulent sea have an effect on my mind. Where a gull crying as it is swept past seems almost real, real enough to wonder at that gull's past, its destination.
Can I suggest if you add finding a mental refuge to your 4+ page task list it might pay dividends? I walk out of a taxing situation and reach for my scenario, it is a comfort.
If you need a cd of sounds to help (maybe rain on a tin roof) , that's fine too.
You are a very capable person Elizabeth, please turn your talents to your own welfare.