thanks for you suggestions
im just really fed up at myself and im going nowhere....
i wish i had the confidence people expected me to have and im sick of feeling like a dork that people think i clearly am... all this built up frustration comes from not being able to progress in my career life, social life and financial life - i know i have the potential to but it's just not working.. and i really can't be bothered trying anymore.
I'm basically done. Age has nothing to do with it. I'm afraid the horse has bolted and that's all there is with me. I'll just be some single loser dork for the rest of my life and then I'm done forever.
Tonight was a CLASSIC opportunity to network and i just couldn't do it. I hate having potential to do things with my life and get places but not having the ability to do anything about it due to my anxieties and depression. All these psychologists are useless.
I made myself an early grey tea and then I'm going to bed after this.
I posted up on SANE forums too (same username I use here) if you want further information... these two forums are better than any bullcrap the psychologists tell me about... to think i even sacrificed going to the group therapy this evening to go to that stupid careers thing... it woulda been worth it had i actually tried to network..
I'm sick of seeing couples embracing in the streets, I'm sick of seeing people be happy... I'm not happy and I'm not liking anything and it's bringing those around me down.. it's why I've been excluded... because people are shallow... I hate all this stuff... I try to do stuff and nothing happens... everyone just mouths platitudes and i've had enough.
Time to become a recluse.
I have no money (200 bucks) and I do lousy tutoring. I also 'study' part time.
My psychologists are wasting their time and my folks are wasting their money.
I'm sick of posting on here. Soaking up tragedy..