Right well there are a couple of things that have been bugging me lately so rather than let them build until I lecture like the Mum I am I'm just going to put it out there.
Sorry in advance (sorry to you too Jay) but it needs to be said. My kids call this kind of rant me being angry mummy...
Sometimes you will have multiple replies and you respond to James and myself and completely ignore Jay. I don't know if you are aware you're doing it but it really does make me feel rubbish so I can't even imagine how Jay feels.
I wanted you to be aware of this in case you weren't because Jay gives you solid advice and support and if that was me I'd have gotten hurt and stopped responding (or knowing me chewed you out for it).
Right. That's out of my system. Sorry but you are too smart to be making careless mistakes that push others away.
As to your post. I'm glad you are in an ok frame of mind. I do worry about you putting your life on hold in search of a diagnosis.
You do remind me of myself in my 20s. I needed a kick in the ass to realise I am not beneath or less than everyone else. And the only person holding me back was me. Games are good. Relaxing is great. But as long as it is not a distraction from your life. Having applied for three jobs by the end of the week is an even better goal. Then you play.
Your family are away and are worried about you and to be honest deservedly so. You are ok now. But are you actually doing anything to help yourself? What happens in a weeks time when you look back and start to slump because you haven't done anything to help yourself?
A diagnosis is not going to transform your life and make it better. That is up to you.
When you mentioned the useless psychs who said you had to get a grip I think they meant take control of your life. Take action. Help yourself. All those cliches which are irritating but true.
You are an adult. Part of that is finding purpose and work and becoming independent. Finding a way to manage your MI and function on your own. You are not incapable or useless or worthless. You are fully capable just need the push to try.
Sorry. I know I am over the line. I wish at your age my parents had been harder on me. Not just saying it will happen and supporting me financially. But turfing me out and saying TRY! Mum rant over now. I do care. Games are good but financial independence is better.
Take care of yourself please.