Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),
Thank you for being here for me. That really means a lot for you to make time to check on me, & to offer to sit and/or listen...what a blessing is your friendship :)
Sadly, some things/circumstances can’t be changed. There are things that can’t be undone, which leaves a heavy feeling.
There are things that I wish that could be different, but literally cannot be changed...such is life sometimes, my friend...
But what I can change & what I have the power to work on is myself. Not because anyone else is telling me to “change” this time, but because I want to...I suppose maybe the light is, if nothing else, I have some control over my own life.
Sometimes I think it’s easy to point the finger & accuse others of various things, & while all that might be justified, I feel it can be very hypocritical if I don’t also take a good, hard look at myself in the mirror. Not in a self critical way, but in a realistic way...a growth mindset.
Perhaps the following quotes sum it up better than I ever could:
Real growth is when you start checking and correcting yourself. Instead of blaming others, you take your power back by being responsible for your own life.
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Emotional maturity is understanding you have some toxic traits too. It’s not always the other person.
- unknown
I‘m trying to be a better person these days...Is it working very well? Debatable, but I’m trying in my own mediocre & sometimes ineffective way...
I really enjoyed the dinner, thank you. The food was decent, loved the drinks, but perhaps most importantly, I valued the company. One of our friends couldn’t make it, & to my surprise, I actually genuinely missed her presence.
That speaks volumes. In the past, in my old circles, I almost never missed friends (because they were my Space Fillers & Void Fillers). What a difference discernment makes...
Things are moving slowly with the community project. We will get there though...good news is Community Guy is doing a bit better these days, so he will be more involved soon :)
I feel as though I’m constantly talking about me though...I imagine, amongst many things/struggles, your mil’s debt has been causing considerable stress.
How are you feeling these days?
How is your weekend going?
If you don’t wish to answer, that’s okay. I understand & respect that, but just know you have a friend in me who cares. I’m thinking of you and your gorgeous family & sending warmth :)
With love xoxox