Darling friend/beautiful b (& a wave to all),
Thank you for being here for me. That really means a lot for you to make time to check on me, & to offer to sit and/or listen...what a blessing is your friendship :)
Sadly, some things/circumstances can’t be changed. There are things that can’t be undone, which leaves a heavy feeling.
There are things that I wish that could be different, but literally cannot be changed...such is life sometimes, my friend...
But what I can change & what I have the power to work on is myself. Not because anyone else is telling me to “change” this time, but because I want to...I suppose maybe the light is, if nothing else, I have some control over my own life.
Sometimes I think it’s easy to point the finger & accuse others of various things, & while all that might be justified, I feel it can be very hypocritical if I don’t also take a good, hard look at myself in the mirror. Not in a self critical way, but in a realistic way...a growth mindset.
Perhaps the following quotes sum it up better than I ever could:
Real growth is when you start checking and correcting yourself. Instead of blaming others, you take your power back by being responsible for your own life.
Emotional maturity is understanding you have some toxic traits too. It’s not always the other person.
I‘m trying to be a better person these days...Is it working very well? Debatable, but I’m trying in my own mediocre & sometimes ineffective way...
I really enjoyed the dinner, thank you. The food was decent, loved the drinks, but perhaps most importantly, I valued the company. One of our friends couldn’t make it, & to my surprise, I actually genuinely missed her presence.
That speaks volumes. In the past, in my old circles, I almost never missed friends (because they were my Space Fillers & Void Fillers). What a difference discernment makes...
Things are moving slowly with the community project. We will get there though...good news is Community Guy is doing a bit better these days, so he will be more involved soon :)
I feel as though I’m constantly talking about me though...I imagine, amongst many things/struggles, your mil’s debt has been causing considerable stress.
How are you feeling these days?
How is your weekend going?
If you don’t wish to answer, that’s okay. I understand & respect that, but just know you have a friend in me who cares. I’m thinking of you and your gorgeous family & sending warmth :)
With love xoxox