That was a real heart post thankyou Starts and the butterfly yeah loven it thx hun, do see them a bit here, back home soonish.
A lot of emotion's come out here, so peaceful, hard cries for lot of reasons, RockStar, being alone, needing love, rejection, being around love and more good people, lucky have a lot of like/love but the beast pulls ya away at times aye. Unravelling more, good it's coming out. Crying's a good thing, God knows done enough in this life but untold happies too
Change is happening, coming to terms with it. It's stimulating, don't know what's ahead but it's goin on. Maybe moving yet love where I am, lot of friends family close by & around but you don't see them all time. Feel like I'm moving on further, not great cause feel like I'm leaving my beautiful behind, like I've left him where he left but it really is that way though, as he said just gotta keep going. Bloody hard but it's still adjusting. Ok though, over the worst but it hits at times really hard. It's a process grieving.
Feels like this trip a lot of the past 4ish yrs have come out which is good, been a rocky road but hacked well overall and some really frightening places the head goes which is so usual with BP but when there's other shit going on that's heavy as we know how it goes but time takes us through everything. Good times, many amongst, lot of learning.
Just feeling today, not great, not overly blaghhh and will be ok.