Im worried about star too DB. We can only sit and hope for her.

Its ok DB, you can have moments as long as the good outweighs the bad. Im glad your taking care of yourself too.

Hugs DB i know your hurting and we are right here with you. ❤❤

D u still play TT i played through school but dont and havent for a long while. Im glad you do that for those who havr special needs. Thats pretty special.

See your my special lady and others think ao too. Im sure they are grateful ❤

Squishy soul hugs feel the love flow ❤❤

Hey DB,

That’s lovely about the TT and the special needs folk, do try and get back to that :)

I’ve read quite a few of the ‘Wolf’s posts and can understand your missing her. I guess it’s the not knowing? I belong to quite few online forums, for various interests, and for many years. One can develop friendships, without ever meeting that individual in real life, and those friendships can be quite meaningful. I have lost one or two due to illness along the way,, and it is a very strange feeling.

Hugs to you DB, cheers M

Hi DB,

Thank you for the lovely words :) You are a very warm, affectionate soul.

The uncertainty must be difficult. Not knowing how things are and “guessing” must be painful and worrying...I know you’ve shed many tears...Starwolf is a very special person and a blessing in yours (and many others) life.

You sound so determined to get on top of your depression. I admire your spirit.

Thank you for asking :) I have just been thinking and slowly finding my feet again. Finding solace in unexpected things like observations of fog, cloudy skies, etc plus music, art, etc. Have been needing time to myself so haven’t been socialising much in the offline realm. Sometimes I need a bit of solitude to regroup.

Comforting soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Mathy im grateful for you toon darlin you're always included when im saying thanks here xx

Yeah same hav lost forum friend &made a few one ive met &stayed with tho didnt this last trip away but hope to at xmas hurts doesnt it.

I've been thinking a while now to ask the mods if there's anyway of finding out esp that she lives alone. Not sure how guess i could report a post here do it that way

Yeah Mathy since loss of partner in '15 ive not been steady at tt tho more steady with sp needs. Must get back into.

Bloody mojo & love tt

Starwolf she's special aye. Shes got through sooo much & learnt to have the beast at a heel. Inspirational

You get ((( soul hugs ))) too darlin xxxx

Hey what go with our sparrow young & restless matrimony Missing it 😅

Thx for dropping by

How you doin called in your thread got rough idea

take good care 😘

Hey sweet xx

Thx hun think we're similar 😙

Thx darl yeah just wanna know re Star shes tough too but whatever has her has knocked the stuffing out of her she said she didnt have the oomph to post jeez hating it.

Yeah saw you posted youd been withdrawing from rl (real life) i hope you go back to seeing your friends i want you to be happy honey but understand that too.

Actually im up birdy fart had shit sleep neck/shoulders & other body parts aching but stirred neck up shopping for god sake & friend helped so back on heavy pain relief stil awake bout 3.30am seeing pain specialist thurs & first thought was get my crap together people die & dont have choice im wasting life

Thx hun i really am determined to beat depression very happy to come outta last BP with few deepies but handled them mind you heads all over atm but reckon its chemistry changing & the beast fighting for dominance. Nah

My turn for peace. You too girl. Good youve been thinking we cant achieve & win without aye & reminded me of what Starwolf taught me to deal with thoughts you looking at fog skies. Good u hav music ive seen you like that some sad songs when you low what artbdo you do i do too

I care very much bout you too darling long ((( soul )))

Thankyou xx

Soz darling didnt see that

Yeah have been tt intermittently but with physical mental health & being away but gotta get back, not being much of a leader not being there much also gunna start nearby suburb soon too

Thx loven special lady & nice feel the love flow

Jesus did grocery shopping yesday neck/shoulders both this time givin curry hold off pain relief but ya can take so much aye. Hows your pain?

Thx xweety girl stay tough & strong youve gotten through so much

btw chooks something good about yourself its not that hard girl (( xxxx)) soul flow

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Ohhh btw loved sparrow update 😄

Daghhh the longer you're away Rock-Starwolf the more worried. Clearly things aren't good & you said you didnt expect to last this long. I'm missing you terribly but not giving up on you yet. Hospital?

Selfish yeah. I need you Rock, when you're around I feel secure & safe. Please b ok. 😢

I asked MODS to check if they're able, haven't heard back so dunno

I'm ok but crying a bit. Was reading something here (forums) that got to me & think wearing down with friggen pain again & this bout neck/shoulders/back isnt near as bad as others but stil BLOODY painful trying not to but at times need strong pain meds. All i bloody did was grocery shopping & had help paying for it. Annoyed.

Pain specialist soon, not worried but know its not gunna be good news.

Rock if i dont come here & talk to you some days plz know you're in my thoughts a lot, that won't change. You make such a difference.

Sending love, care & eternal frienship (( soul hugs )) magic lady xx

hugs DB i know your worried, im worried too. i hope we hear from her soon.

when your stressed pain gets worse so try to stay calm. i know thats not easy. but your right, theres only so muhc people can take and then it gets too much.

i hope the pain specialist goes well and they can provide some good answers for you

hugs xoxo

wont respond how i am- its on my thread this is your place xoxo

Thoughtful thx Starts darlin thats ok tho im here for yous too & on your thread as well

Yeah im calm but upset DAMN not knowing tho. In limbo

Yeah you feel same she's been with us all the way. Its hurting. Getting bit scared. Fear losing people i love

Survival: A thought is only that... until we think more about it... then react with feeling something.

Emotions are feelings.

Probs healthy to feel. The trick would be not allowing painful thoughts to keep repeating, that's where depression thrives.

Think, acknowledge, feel, allow other thoughts in.

Practice

Hey DB,

What do you do to chill out? Do you like music? Meditate? If you like music, my favourite Adelaide band reformed for a gig, in a church with a great big rainbow flag. Beautiful harmonies and meaningful songs.Did me the worl of good to go see them and they live streamed it, so it’s available on FB. If your data will allow it google fruit trio - that should bring theirFB page up for you - 10 mins will soothe you :)

Sparrow Update: Well, he flew into the nest with some stuff, and a lady flew in too. She exited stage left very quickly - must be a hovel in there, doubt he’s done any housekeeping!! I wait for further developments.

Hope Mods are able to find out some news about ‘Wolf - it’s the not knowing that’s causing you pain, hugs Mathy xx

Maths you dont know how happy you make me reading sparrow updates 😃 thankyou, mmm wonder if he's moving too quickly, she maybe bit shy 😲. Exit stage Left...even. loved that show, the cat lol & the voice. Snaggle puss

love songs but dont do music often, but wil check that out one day thx

I watch lot of tv, walk, eat, eat & did i mention eat 👹 god that's just scary

Got special needs tt tomoz & goin back other tt this wk.

Yeah wanna get more music downloadec got bits here & there love lot of love songs.

One of faves is Pretenders stand by me & David Bowie lets dance

Thx dropping by hun, hope you travellin well xx

Rock thought you'd be keen to hear how dog sitting went.

Yeah I knew labs have beautiful nature, shes a darling, let her off lead when safe to do so on dirt tracks (loved walkin em even tho daily that place was trying to kill me, was determined to deck me but recovered everytime stoked)& ttwice she bolted on me couldnt get her back tho well trained not as you know if foods calling her. So on lead from then & ya cant keep eye out for snakes as well when shes off lead let alone reluctant to take eyes off every damned step, lose rocks gravel etc but cool work out. Different hill walks to hear oh goin back Xmas again dear guys paying fare again. Good of them aye.

So not demanding at all apart from pogo jumping at walk time & food time shes so lovable.

You'll love this at random i'd dance if we had music on, she'd be standing really close looking or sometimes lay in front & im sure one time she was moving with me dancing the gorgeous. Such a treasure. Very well loved very cared for

How are you dear RockStar wolf? Rhetorical you'll come back when you're able

Love (( soul ))

Mathy yeah not knowing's a beast

Thx hun re: mods im checkin emails daily & more xx

Hi DB,

I always appreciate your kindness and caring. Thank you :)

Your back/neck/shoulder pain sounds awful. It must affect so many aspects of your life and I really hope the specialist can help you manage the pain.

I know you’re missing Starwolf and extremely concerned. Your love and friendship always shows. I bet if she read the dog sitting story, she would have loved it. Labradors are gorgeous with such a gentle nature.

Sending comforting soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Dear dear Peps ditto hum re kindness & caring & thankyou xx

Yeah thought she'd like to hear about my dog sitting experience

Always comforting & pleased to see you Peps thx for droppin in 😚

Hope you're continuing back up sweet

Rock dear lady you're incredibly strong you can recoop from this

Looking forward to seeing you back here when you're able

Love & missing you like you wouldn't believe xx

Hi DB,

Thanks DB ❤️

Your loyalty and love for Star is beautiful. You’re a good friend, DB.

Pepper xoxo

Thankyou beautiful Pepper soo glad to have met you xx

Thx mods for reply

Star you're in my thoughts lady

Really hope you're coming out other side. Xx

Aw thanks, likewise...

Pepper xoxo

Oh DB,

Soul hugs...

Sometimes the tears need to fall...

Pepper xoxo ❤️

Thx dear Peps you too a beautiful mate xx

Wish we knew how shes goin

Been tired lot lately dunno why & sleeping lot, havent walked last 3 days did ome this eve.

Been emotional fair bit lately, really hurting & missing late partner, crying in bits here & there, can handle this in comparison to BP lows that are tragic but not feeling particularly great.

Feeling bit hurt from comment here not this thread) & its not even how it is, same happened while ago.

Average atm pfffttt

Hey demonblaster,

After reading how you are feeling just wanted to reach out so you know someone's listening. I also don't always get stuff done and have been through multiple griefs. I like your attitude, you sound strong. Also, I think you do really well with what you write to people. You know feelings and I think you reach people.

I think you are great.

Ohhh magic thankyou sooo much for those lovely things you said. Really good of you to say. Moving.

Dunno just can't stop the waterworks lately. Its better to have this release though.

Thankyou Magic really thanks xx

Hi DB,

monkey_magic worded it very compassionately. Lovely post...

You have a very big heart, DB. Hugely empathic. You love deeply and feel deeply...don’t do things by “halves.” Alas, that also means hurting deeply too...

Your late partner was very special to you. The love of your life if I remember correctly. It must be so painful sometimes...

Empathic soul hugs,

Pepper xoxo

Hi DB,

Sad you’re feeling sad, no words to add, big hugs to you M xx

Hi Peps thankyou you're such a boost i mean that you're ongoing support & friendship is very appreciated. Thankyou always for your kind words too.

Yes Magic's post blew me away went to sleep feeling good about it & woke up thinking too. Comforting very knowing there's lovely caring people here too thankyou all so much

Maths you know i think highly of you too dont you (( ☺)) you also have been solid & i assure you also very appreciated. And lol those sparrow updates just top it all off 😄

Thx so much beauties, all of yous, rocken 👍

Means a lot xxx

RockStar you're in my thoughts how often daily.

Hope you're on improve.

Missing you soooooo bloody much.

Plz be ok dear good lady

Love & (( soul ))