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  1. Ggrand
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    6 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey my bbff👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Heart warming to hear that your pain is almost gone..I hope it continues to disappear until zero pain....☺️..

    Sorry about the PTSD scenarios...not good are they poor bbff....Distract those scenes and thoughts with good memories and thoughts if you can...The quicker we learn to manage those downers...the easier it is to come up from them....easier said then done...but with practice and perseverance we can....

    Oh..what happened to your finger?...Deebi..I tripped a little bit and when I tried to stop from falling over....which I did save me...with my outdoor table..well I have a smallish cactus sitting in the middle of it...Some how I got heaps of fine little cactus prickles all over my little finger as it decided to go into the middle of the cactus 🌵....I spent a long time plucking them out..broke a few and are still in their now my finger is swollen, red and sore..😂😂...Silly silly me...

    How was your day precious bbff?...

    Looks like the rain has gone...and the sun will be shining tomorrow....Just like everything in this universe thing are constantly changing...even us....

    Very much love with heaps of care...Deebi 💚🦋and a big bear hug.🧸🤗...

    Hello to all Deebi’s visitors...I hope your all doing okay...My love and hugs to you all as well..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    6 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all 👋

    Ohh hear we go...my body couldn't give me a cursing break!

    The two fingers not just one seems to be easing off with pain. One appeared like a paper cut that's bigger and quite suss but White. The other has the most grotesque infection. Antibiotics seems to be working the pains easing.

    Today gently leant slightly and 😲😨 screaming back pain. Out again. Bit of arvo sleep relieved when I got up got up said to Mr beautiful oh good at least it's not caning getting out of bed. Oh how wrong could I be! About 10 secs of unbelievable bloody excrutiating pain being in a sitting posi. Cried my head off after several loud calls of pain. Seriously body leave me alone! Have to lose weight to back off the Diabetes infections and extreme back pain tho has been as bad with a perfect figure tho this pains I know having the excess choccy additions 😄

    With strongs the pain sitting down any positions cruel. Had a gut full of this constant pain crap.

    Been struggling with ptsd and scenarios. Extreme high health stress so much bloody pain! I'm ok talking laughs etc but been a real cow too. Sorries to darling I can't stand what a picky short critical cow I turn into. I'm sure its mostly recovering from BP.

    Lot of tears lately didnt like AD'S mostly stopped that release, still don't know what but didn't like what they changed in me.

    SO hard being so exhausted think this has sparked pump up again but same deal extreme pain unless I stay still no movement

    Had 2 one was worse that made me call out the terrible pains laying on my back. Back to bloody recliner.

    Other times I was normal with dear Mr D but hard on a partner the precious.

    SO SO over it!

    At least the original nasty beasty is so much better still keeping on meds for a wk after it fully clears wee while off yet.

    Fingers starting to respond and back off pain. Really really nasty ugly infection on one.

    Gotta lose weight and excercise too hoping as before was so close to not being Diabetic and off the pills.

    Absolutely wrecked.

    Love Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩💜 🗯🤗

    Thanks for listening peeps 🤗⚘

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    6 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Ohh Grandy love 👩‍❤️‍👩 ouch x how many wow that sounds really nasty sweety.

    I heard well read our lovely Pawsy saying about your poor finger hey we even stir up fingers together 😆 I agree with Pawsy some thing to avoid infection. Also soaking it in warm to hot salty water should open the Paws (haha excuse the pun) I think best just let it dry naturally cause wiping or dabbing both could push any strays in deeper.

    Not good gorgeous 😚🤗 hope it comes good quickly.

    Love Floss always 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯

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    9 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    You’re going through so much physical pain atm....Gee honey I’m deeply sorry..My hearts breaking for you...I wish that I could ease your hurts...Its just so unfair.....Yes Deebi, You definitely need a break from your body pain.....

    Deebi...Not sure if I. Listening properly...did you stop your ADs?....Maybe the crying along with the back pain..could be due to stopping your meds...withdrawals?

    Not sure if this will work for you with PTSD scenarios....My Counsellor told me to tell myself that I am safe..nothing can hurt me now....then try to ground myself and do some mindfulness with the nearest object close to me..It works sometimes but not always...I’m pleased it’s not taking you down into the depth of blackness...Well done honey in managing your PTSD the best you can...I’m proud of you...Did you know that?...

    The drawing ointment I found and it drew out all but one prickle...which is not that sore anymore..just looks like a pimple on my finger😂..

    Poor my bbff....I hope so much that your physical self gives you a break...it’s hard trying to manage your mh when physical pain gets in the way...

    Always here for you bbff...my soul is with you their..always...with my care, understanding and love..🦋🕊💚🧸🤗...

    Bear hugs beautiful bbff...🧸🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy.,

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    10 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Thank you dear great friend 💑 I tried to post at yours but the site was down. On phone atm painfully slow.

    My backs eased off I think through sleeping on recliner not at all ideal. It's the muscles now are giving hell.

    Had a gut full Grandz. So exhausted it's started again. Had a short nice mania when my back was / is out now I'm sleeping as much as po. Simply wrecked.

    Thanks for your soul being here. My darlings done as much as he can the dear sweety.

    Love you heaps so grateful dear friend xx

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    10 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Oh Deebi lass...

    of course you are feeling exhausted... the pain has been constant for so long now... lass I'm worrying about you eating... being so tired can make having something healthy to eat so very hard... lass if you aren't managing to eat... do you think you could ask the lovely Mr Deebi to go to the chemist & get you the hospital strength supplement to help you...

    Here is the gentlest softest of bear hugs for you...

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    11 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩... waves 👋 to Paws and everyone reading..

    Please don’t concern yourself about posing on mine..The most important thing in the world to me is..you..Please Sleep as much as you need to dearest bbff...sleeping gives us a little holiday from physical and mental pain.....

    I am pleased that the recliner has helped to ease some pain from your back.....I think when your back goes out..you may walk differently to avoid more pain..then the different walk uses muscles we don’t usually use..and when we awake them, they protest because they haven’t been used before..I hope they will very quickly get used to being used...

    As our lovely Paws has said...Please try to eat healthy meals...food has an enormous impact on our health...A quick meal which is healthy..well I think it is..Is those 2 minute noodle packets...cook like instructions, then pack your bowl with lots of steamed/microwaved frozen veggies....I do this when I’m not feeling well enough to cook...and it only takes a couple of minutes to prepare and cook....

    I need to get ready now for VS counselling..but have been thinking about you a lot..with concern...Wish I could do more for you instead of just words....

    Always here for you bbff...4 eva your in my heart with love and care...💚🦋...I’ll join our lovely Paws and have a little group hug with you both..if that’s okay...

    I will pop back in this evening to say hi again....and see how your travelling,,, remember dearest bbff...like every other BP cycle this too shall pass....holding your hand beautiful bbff...we can do this together....joined by our golden thread..nothing not even Beasty can break it..

    Much love and hugs dear beautiful ladies...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    11 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Sweety Paws 🐾 & bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi readers 🖐

    Thank you loveys for your caring posts 🤗

    Girls your caring thoughts about not eating are so appreciated.
    It'd take a miracle for me not to eat 😄 then again in mania it's pretty easy...too bizzay 😅

    We've had some veg and meat and a lovely soup from Heinz wow! it's a chicken one.
    Grandz great idea the noodles.
    The lovely soft bear hugs are a treat 🤗 back atcha
    Hope you're doing ok Pawsy 🐾

    Dear Grandy thank you darlin. I think you too feel bad if some days go by and we haven't posted. Crazy really we know we have a very strong unbreakable ☄ Golden thread friendship.

    No sweety but good thought thanks. I doubt the cryings withdrawals. Been off them a few wks now. Guessing around 6 wks or more.

    I've been so exhausted and had started healing original prob hence less pain more sleep.

    Was 3rd day in completely wiped out when my back went out ...😨...and along came...not a spider but another mania. That's about 4 in this last BP. Would have been a mix of exhaustion and pain stimulation I reckon bought on extra boost of energy tho way too tired to enjoy it, had to sleep in the chair. Can't wait but really scared going back to bed. Be a while yet. So many different pains. The initial feeling like the backs breaking is pure hell. No picnic with rest but different.
    So so wrecked. You can hold up and hold, good but hard it can be for wks which it was with the first thing and fingers nearly sorted tho suss on one. Muscles are less but still painful standing. Good thinking walking differently hun.

    So the extreme pain strong meds exhaustion made me cry. I do with hard pain and the rest.

    Going to sleep soon.

    Thank you so much girls you've no idea how grateful I am.

    Oh thx for the PTSD I remember hearing that at yours. Also I've been saying that was then it won't happen again I need to get out of the past and live in the now. Scenarios are separate to PTSD I think born from anxiety.

    Hold on people, we'll never know freedom and peace if we give up.

    Care thoughts and warmth.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤝👀☘


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    16 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone reading...🤗

    How are you feeling today honey?..

    It’s okay bbff..to sleep as much as your body needs..I don’t think we can force our body to sleep if it doesn’t need it..

    I remember before you said the recliner helps with your back...just a thought Deebi...maybe laying flat is stretching your back and your muscles to much....Is their a way that you could raise the top half of your mattress so your laying more the same as you do on the recliner?...

    Awe...honey I’m sorry you were crying..although you know it’s okay don’t you sweetyheart...Except for the eyes..which get hot and sore....Pain is hard to manage....I have a strong pain threshold...yet can go down with pain when it gets to a certain strength or lasts more then a few days....

    Im a bit concerned with my feet...I mowed with my thongs on...which I never do..but it was just to hot..and now I’m feeling pain..just a slight pain under the balls of both my feet....I hope I haven’t caused plantain fascillitis to start up again..,,I’m doing the exercises with a cold bottle in the mornings just in case...,How are your feet feeling...are they still sore?

    Oh..I wanted to tell you..that I completed my very first sudoku yesterday....I down loaded the app called puzzle page..it has 5 different puzzles each day.....If I remember rightly you like sudoku...

    Oh yeah also precious bbff....Not sure if you know this..but here goes...L💚VE 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 Y💚U.....Big time...Pubaok...yadimh always with much care 💚....

    Please Deebi....look after yourself...for me☺️...and for you..need you bbff...🌜🦢🌛...

    Love and hugs everyone...💜🤗..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    17 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand
    Beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi dear friend 🤗

    Thank you for caring Grandy. Without you I'd feel alone here.
    People come at random or leave but you stick by me. For that I'm truly grateful.

    Not too bad today thx hun. Slept for the first time in a while in bed. Wasn't comfy so ended back in the chair last night. Took some otc meds helped for nanny nap. Missed not being there with my sweety. I know he's just there close but such a love it's nice being together.

    We're slowly getting packed up. Mr Deebi 😍 dear loves been such a great help and comfort. Said to mhw today I probs wouldnt be so calm if I was alone doing this. Not sure if I'll get anywhere to live, hard rental market here.

    Back seems to have come good in the chair thank goods. Muscles were tragic good thoughts hun they're better. Yip feet still no good. Might need a yikes needle for foot. Very painful I've seen with poor late love and heard.

    I hit deep exhaustion was 3rd day when back went out. More mania.
    Still sleeping a lot been a hard near 8 wks. Tremendous pain disturbed sleep nightly often through pain, strong meds BP. Coming out the other side.

    Good thoughts with recliner I'm thinking on some way.

    I asked GP once about my pain threshold he said high too, he saw me at the peak of the neck pain 😲 ohh. I cry releasing stress.

    Oh no hope you haven't stirred them up hun. Please be careful Grandz. Barefoot must be dangerous. I get the heat but better being safe...hands on hips precious ☺

    Good girl with the Sudoku. No not a fan lovey.
    Sounds good Puzzle page.

    Haha loven your special message... 💗LOVE 💜YOU 💗TOO 💜SO💗 MUCH 💜
    Ditto sweetylove need you too 🤗

    Thank you sweetyheart your friendships beautiful 😊😚
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    19 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    Always here for you dearest bbff...Been a bit slack though..just having one thing after the other pop up here and their which is totally confusing for me....That said your Always each day in my thoughts....Oh didn’t I tell you..that we are super glued and there’s no way to unglue it.💚😁💚

    My feet are fine now...and are back to normal..pheew..was a bit worried there...No more mowing in thongs😁...lesson learnt...

    You have had a terrible time with your physical health for a long time now..and I’m truely sorry...Are you eating healthy foods?...drinking plenty of water?...

    Sleep as we know is best in recovery...So dear precious friend..Sleep as much as you need to..I’m never far away from you in my heart and spirit..I’m sitting next to you..

    A few days ago..on Tuesday before I left for work I tried to find Ebony so I could put her inside to open my gates..I couldn’t find her anywhere..I knew she was under the house but she totally ignored me...I opened the gate hoping she wouldn’t un outside of it...nope she didn’t show herself..I came back inside to let Kya out..still no Ebony..Said do you want a lolly (smacko)...still no Ebony..I went to work without saying good bye to her....

    When I got home she was their to greet me...She was absolutely covered in this sticky weed seeds..so bad that one of her eyes had the fur over it with sticky weed seeds and it wouldn’t open...No rest for me..poor fur baby..I had to give her a hair cut...and it had to be a crew cut...to get all the sticky weed seed out of her fur..took around an hour.. she is beautiful again... uneven crew cut and all...Honestly I think my fur girls are harder to raise and look after then my children 😂😂😂..

    Just thought I would share with you...a little distraction for you reading it...

    Awe Deebi...I’m scared about if you don’t get anywhere to live...I have a room here that your very welcome to...and the run of my home as well.....Will Mr. Deebi let you stay at his until you find something?..

    Love you sweet girl...💚🦋🕊🧸🤗...4 eva SSS ..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    22 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Dear D:, wiht a warm wave to Grandy~

    I'm not sure if I have mentioned this before, and it might not apply, however you never know.

    When my back became more than I could bear either Mrs C or I would call an ambulance.

    Now in my state they come issued wiht square wheels, and concrete for the cradle to hold you, pus no lateral support so one tends to rise up and then fall back on every corner.

    This exacerbates the condition and I'm in a significantly worse state than before I started. Why not use my car you ask, with Mrs C at the helm. The sad fact us that if you arrive as A&E via ambulance you get in a lot quicker, even with ambulance stacking.

    It eventually dawned on everyone that whenever I arrived I was always given the same meds, and held for around 8 hours, with repeated tailing off doses as things went along. Those meds did in fact do the trick, 3 different sots of pain killer pus a muscle relaxant. Eventually a doctor in A&E said take this med pack and use it (under an other's supervision) rather than coming into A&E.

    I saw my GP who said "that ought to fix it" with a grin and from then on I've used these meds at home rather than after an, ambulance ride. My son is a nurse in A&E anyway.

    It has significantly improved my lot. It is quick -as they are effective -and there is no spine crunching ambulance ride.

    I consider I'm privileged to be entrusted with these meds, which are on prescription and restricted, so far it has worked out and I'm pain level acceptable in 4 hours or less. It's important to be supervised so I do not get confused and get the dosage wrong or have something adverse happen.

    As I see my GP and others quite often any change in my other medication or physical state has a bearing if this arrangement will continue (flippers crossed it does). This has been going for years so far.

    I've no idea if this is in any way applicable to your pain, but at least it might point out there are sometimes multiple ways of getting results.

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    22 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 & Mr Croixy hi any readers ☺

    I'm sorry I didn't get back here today. Being slacko and sleeping a fair whack too.

    It's late atm so I'll bbt if that's ok.

    Thank you both for dropping by. Very appreciated.

    Grandy you're so beautiful love you to absolute bits.

    Hoping you both are going as well or better than you can.

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜💗🤝👀💤🤗☄SSS 4evs Bpaly beautiful 😚

    Thank you ☺

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    23 February 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Dear bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 Croixy 🐧 & readers ☺

    Thank you both for your caring posts and time.

    Dear Grandy I'm so grateful for such a beautiful close loving friendship.
    Honestly I've never thought of you being slack. Always grateful and happy seeing you. Truth lovely ☺

    You certainly have a few things going on don't you.
    Oh Grandz I so hope everything falls into place and you get good results esp the heart my girl sheez 😐
    Good job we're super glued suits me just fine 🤗

    Good news about your feet. Last thing we want playing up. You were lucky there Floss. Mine are both still not great at all. I hold hope and for when I get the weight off.

    Yip physical health for the last 4ish yrs has been rough on a constant.
    Backs out again. We forget, I went to help Mr 😍 turn the mattress and yeowza 😨 luckily its mild but letting me know on some movements blow it. Back in recliner again starting tonight

    Oh yes thanks sweety plenty of water and vegies at times too. Loven zapping the frozen ones you were saying about ages ago.

    Plenty of sleep it does help both ways mentally and bodily I reckon. Exhaustion takes time to recover. Mostly better now.
    Thanks gorgeous sitting with me ya sweetyheart. Same here for you

    Oh no what a mess Ebony was in the cute little job but naughty. Must have been such a job. The scissors sound like a save.

    You're so beautiful worrying about me re living somewhere. We did some more packing well decluttering. Atm I'm best only doing sitting jobbies.

    No although no probs with Mr Deebi 😍 me staying but he has 2 housemates. I took that option out a while back. With Mr D a lifetime but not wanting to stay there apart from occasionally.

    Love you too sweet girl 4 evs SSS.
    Thanks honey you're a precious friend to many esp me 👩‍❤️‍👩💗🤝🤝
    🤝😴👀☄⚘

    Dear Mr Croixy I very much appreciate you mentioning that about the back. I have put a great deal of thought asking GP tho I have some strong meds, at times it's pretty hairy as you know.

    Once I couldnt at all stand. Omg was sceeaming the place down.
    Max that ambo could give and I think muscle relax as well as Green whistle made no dif at all. Hospital more needles big pain relief still could barely stand.
    It's different now to how it was that was also as is now often screaming pain.
    At least atm it's mild. Was just getting used to being back into bed grr.

    Hope you're ok Croixy. You too are so appreciated.
    Thanks Mr ☺🐧

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    26 February 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and all...🤗.

    I hope you’re feeling okay bbff...if not we’re always here for you..lovely bbff...

    I just wanted to call in to wish you a very good night tonight and hope your sleep is a restful sleep with gentle dreams of peace and tranquility...

    I am going to bed myself in a tick of the clock...feeling so tired...and sleepy....I keep micro napping while I’m talking to you😁..

    See you tomorrow...my dearest bbff....Sleep well.....love you and unconditionally always will...💚🌹🕊🦋🍀👼🦄..yadimh..

    Good night..everyone..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    1 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hi beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    I wanted to call in to see how your going lovely bbff..

    I know your probably quite busy with packing etc...but just wanted to say hello and sit with you for a yummy almond and custard roll....and a cuppa tea/coffee and of course ice cream and strawberries with chocolate sauce spilled all over it....

    Are you okay Deebi.?...both physical and mentally...Here if you need to talk dearest bbff....

    Life can get hard at times...then it can turn around and be the most beautiful times ever.....Think of those beautiful times you have had, we have had and draw your strength from the love and care that Mr.Deebi has for you, that I have for you and your lovely friends here have for you....

    No need to reply honey...just wanted to send my love, care and admiration I have for you...and oops a gentle bear hug..💚🦋🕊🧸🤗....

    Oh I was cleaning out my 💼..and found this tiny golden 🦢 swan broach with brilliant sapphire blue eyes...I thought you might like to have it..Swan are such gentle beautiful peaceful creatures...so the swan broach is a perfect match for your golden heart and soul....

    Rest dear friend..and take the very best care of you...for me....

    My deepest soul feeling love to my spirit soul sister...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy....🌜🌟🌛...

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    3 March 2021 in reply to Ggrand

    Hi my gorgeous bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all lovelies hi too ☺

    So good seeing you beautiful. Sorry its taken an age getting back.
    Thanks for calling in gorjy (gorgeous) 🤗

    I've been pretty good mostly thanks hun. Occasional mood slips but immediately pull up.

    You can relate to this I know poor love the body probs.. pain gets you down doesn't it.

    I'm still in the recliner was going to try bed last night but had several shooting back pains. Bending a fair bit tho I avoid as much as po dear Mr Deebi helps no end. Geez the love he's been a fabulous help. Nothings a problem for him he's so willing the darling. Phoo we're getting there. Tiring.

    Oh thank you sweet girl we loved the custard and Almond roll. What a yum and the Ice cream and strawberries mmm.

    Ohh so gorgeous that swan broach. Geez your a beautiful lady 🤗 Sapphire eyes how exquisite thank you sweetyheart.

    Hey darlin I had Thursday in my calendar for your angiogramme but its Friday and special day tomoz gorgeous 🤝🗯😚⛅

    Oh and thank you for that beautiful visit before too lovely one.

    So easy to love you deeply dear bbff. You're a beautiful soul and an absolutely awesome friend.

    PubAok honey oh loved you cleaning out the 💼 😂 such amazing memories and more to come. We have such a varied fantastic friendship aye.

    Always 🗯 dear friend and enormous love ☺

    👩‍❤️‍👩💜🦊🐕🌞🦄💚🤝

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    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    Thank you for all your very much appreciated posts on my thread...

    We sure do beautiful bbff......and nothing inbthis universe can ever change that.....

    Thats okay about the recliner.li know that you prefer to be in bed..but honestly honey..if the recliner is helping you with your pain...maybe if Mr. Deebi can move it into the bedroom it might make you feel not so alone....I am so happy that you both found each other.....it was meant to be..you’re good for each other.....with a lot of care and love for each other....That’s Gold ...actually it’s more precious then Gold....That’s how I feel about you, our friendship and sss love...absolutely priceless..💚🦄🧸🤗 🌜 🦢🌛..

    I am pleased you like the swan broach...I like swans they look so elegant and peaceful...and I know you love sapphires...

    I wish my 💼 had a fairy wand in it..that really worked..😢..

    How are you going packing all your things up to move?...it’s a horrible chore..and don’t we find things that we put in a safe place..then had forgotten about 😂...

    I hope you get a good sleep tonight..

    much Big love to you bbff...now and forever...pubAok always...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    Hey bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and any readers 👋

    Dear Grandy thank you for dropping by lovely it really is so good seeing my bbff 💜

    You're very welcome hun. I hope you're feeling ok lovey. Big day.

    Nope nothing in this universe will ever change it. Awesome it is 😚

    Yip I'm getting more use to the recliner, just so hard to get out with nature calls or anytime. It locks in two places.
    Feel like I've had a day at the gym trying to get out 😂

    Thanks Grandy he really is a beautiful soul.
    Absolutely darl our sss friendship and deep loves unbreakable ☄

    Swans are very graceful and elegant aren't they.
    Sapphires such a gorgeous colour. I love it sweetyheart.

    I reckon ... I'd love a fairy wand too sweet 😢 not fair!

    Jeepers it's a big job isnt it packing phooey. Don't know where I'd be without this gorgeous being such a tremendous help the dear love.
    So much easier when we're young 😆
    Ha yeah it's cool seeing things we had tucked away and forgotten about. I'm being better throwing or op shopping things.

    My backs better yay till next time. Had 3 I think nights back in bed.
    My other problems returned but onto it straight away sigh. Body give me a bloody rest!
    Talking of sweety I'm concerned about you doing the lawns. Please be careful and take your time honeyheart 👁

    You too beautiful pubAok love and need you dear friend. Appreciate you so much 😚🤗👀🤝😍🦄👩‍❤️‍👩💜☄
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    Hello Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...

    How are you feeling honey?...

    I hope so much things are going okay for you..and your taking it very gently with your back while your packing up and getting ready to move...I wish so much that you didn’t have to move.,.,Have you found something else that you can move into?...it takes a lot out of us looking for somewhere new to live... I wish I could be their to help you pack...although I don’t think we would pack very much..,we would probably be giggling and carrying on like a couple of young children....🧒👧...

    I am sorry that your body keeps hurting you so much...If we could go back in time..how much more gentler we would be on our bodies and mind....I hope you got on top of the other problem before it got to much for you...and also hope your back is behaving itself a little more then it normally does...

    Been thinking so much about you...and wanting to call in here to chat...but I have been stuck inside my head for days now...and only want to talk positives to you here honey...

    We are fighters Deebi...for our peace...and if we keep at it..in time I know we will win...even if it’s only an hour here or their...eventually it will turn into a day or so..then a few days..then who knows maybe a week, a month, persistence and determination has to pay off in the end.....

    Deep SSS love to you bbff....always yadimh...with so much care and comforting thoughts...👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💚🧸🤗🌹🕊💕...pubaok....not just spoken words bestest friend ever ..they come from my heart....💚....

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    BP day 4/5. Had a couple of very short bursts between last and this one. Went ok

    Dear Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi & anyone reading ☺

    Thanks for your lovely visit especially when you're doing the hard yards. Hope so much you're on the improve 💜

    Thanks sweetyheart relieved to say my backs holding kinda. I fear pretty much everytime I bend of it going out.
    Hip/groin pos coming from back
    the mutts dishing out extreme pain often. I can't move so have to suffer it for a few minutes.
    Extra weight adding to pain. Savage but I hav to bend, trying to work out how without it catching. Cruel. I'm using these reasons and reinforcing to build mind set.

    It's very hard for us both as Mr gorgeous also suffers from sharp back pain too. 2/4 hrs hurts us a lot packing

    This lovely units in this area otherwise hoping next suburb.
    Hard pickings.

    Thanks Grandy love. Haha we'd definately be giggling and yakking.
    Oh I'd so love to see you rl 😢.i'd even be quiet as I have. and can 😄so I don't talk your.., 👂 off.

    Some struggles but self talked out of still in mania making it easier.

    Feeling very bummed and dejected.
    I haven't done a thread for a couple of yrs and feel it's a worthy one. Nada replies. I'm 😢 about it but working at not feeling that way but it does hurt and I constantly see other new threads supported by several ppl.
    I'll stop there cause 😢.
    But unsure wether to bother with it anymore.
    Feels like a waste of time and effort pfft lot of tears atm but I'm slightly getting over it.

    We're getting some very disappointing crap from so called besty and his bro of Mr beautifuls. Be seeing them soon. I'll try to hold it together but now of any times is very bad to be having disputes. They're being jerks! basically. I have so much anger justified that I've said to the besty but kept my cool. They don't want to see my temper but if it needs unleashing it'll happen without regrets.

    Me too Grandy you're an amazing bbff and in general to everyone you come in contact with.
    It's beyond and honour to be so incredibly close to my sss ☄
    Always major love and thoughts honey 🤗😚👩‍❤️‍👩💜👀🤝

    Oh and yes determination practice and holding on gets us there.

    Oops and 😄 I'm getting serious about weight loss. Mania helps and I've broken but tbh I think it's ok to and jump back on. Happy about it finally happening. Going to continue little walks to build up to bigger. Damned feet still grr but think both can heal (pun)

    Cya beautiful/s 🌈⚘
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    Grandy love 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi all ☺

    Something not goods going on with my eyesight.

    I'm diabetic and been atrocious with it regarding food which if it is that I really hope it adjusts with another very good day food and fluid wise dieting. Not last night but I wasn't ott.

    It's come on fairly suddenly over the past 2ish wks and is quite a concern.

    It's very difficult to see the text here reading pretty much anything. In the past on occasion it's been long sight that's been a prob with high sugar and then came good. Just a day or so.

    Bizarre, watching TV's fine actually quite clear without my glasses on and with they're not working.

    The reading ones aren't working tho I could see the TV which is out of range for them. Whacky or what! Pretty much 🤤 for anything close.

    Recently I was going ape on lemon barley cordial (Bickfords it's really nice) and going bananas on Zoopers. Both I haven't had for 3 days and won't for an age.

    All above super no no with diabetes I know but the norm was a LOT of choccy that over a mth or more was reducing, now only on breaks but atm none for a while either. Also was being naughty with other food which was normal.

    I have something in my eye that if it hasn't decreased by around now...they haven't contacted for my next appt yet but I'll ring tomoz I'll need to have a procedure done to remove it. No thanks but will.

    I'm using a magnifying thingy for reading often and that's with glasses on. I'll wait to get the new glasses till I see 👀 the eye chick. These were working so didnt rush and its quite a travel to get to where I get them but thats okish.

    Blood tests I'm seeing Doc next week no doubt about diabetes so sounding like it.

    Pretty scary but with luck getting my act together with weight and soon to start regular baby step walks with my love it'll improve.

    I have the text size on about 160.

    It's one of several reasons to choof the weight which IS going to happen. Are we there yet. 2 days good 1 bad. I feel incredibly slim already...thinking it won't be long before I can do some swimwear modelling 😁

    Grandy and Paws thank you so much for jumping on the thread. You're both close to my heart 🤗🤗💜

    Better bed it's witching hrs. Had a sleeper, hardly any these days woot!

    Many thanks for listening and being there ☺

    Nigh nite..nope it's morning now 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🗯🤝🗯😚

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    18 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hey Beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws and all..🤗.

    Sounds like your doing the best you can with your packing..both of you that is...and that’s all you can do....Do you have to move the furniture out as well...if so maybe a furniture remover will be good to hire...or some strong friends...

    Im so sorry about your eyes..maybe something like a cataract?...did the Drs day what it is causing the problem?..If you can Please try hard not to stress about it..put your faith and belief into your Drs....I always say with Drs and test results is no early phone for results is good news..because if it’s serious they will call you in early and discuss it with you....

    Very gently...because we’re bbffs ..that words said in anger are not words coming from your soul..they are words coming from Beasty....I don’t know what has been said or done by your besties...Being angry and it being justified is okay...Don’t want to see you hurt my bbff....if I’ve stepped out of line I’m sorry...mt anger was squashed many years ago..and I don’t really understand it all....

    I didn’t know about your lasted thread...it is really valuable thread..thank you for starting it up...sometimes I think it depends on the time it’s posted..as some threads in busy times can be on the front page for only minutes..until it goes to the second, third etc...I am sorry that happened to your thread..it’s bumped up now and I think it will relate to so many people here....So my bestie bbff..well done beautiful lady....I’ll pop over their today as I have a few addictions I would like to chat about...

    Deebi...I can go days with talking to anyone in real life...it can hurt a lot a makes me feel very lonely and reject by the people ....so you will never ever be able to talk to much to me...I would love that..

    I hope today is a good day for you honey...and you are okay..

    Big love to you my bbff...with gentle baby bear hugs...💚🌹 👶🧸🤗...

    Love to you Paws..and everyone reading...💚🤗..hugs as well...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Hello Deebi, wave to Mr Deebi,

    Oh lass that is not good news about your eyes... of course you are finding it scary... I hope you can get an appt soon... it would be one less worry for you having something done about the thing in your eye.

    Do be careful with your packing... please be good & follow Grandy's advice about taking it gently lass... she is very wise & caring.

    Lass I wonder if with your new thread whether it's the word addiction in the title that is making people not connect to it... a lot of people with addictions are in denial about being addicted & others only think of addiction as being hard drugs... perhaps if you changed it to something like "Breaking Addictions & Unhealthy Habits" more people might feel it applies to them... just a thought... it is such a helpful topic

    Here is a big squishy bear hug for you

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    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

    RUOK?....It’s okay no pressure...I know your busy with packing and your eye..I hope so much that the Drs...can heal it for you...

    If I said wrong or upset you in my last post...I am sorry...

    Please know bbff that I love and care so much about you and am concerned about you....and been thinking of my last post to you...💚🤗🦄🦢🕊🌹🦋..

    Did you get any results about your eye and when they are going to do the procedure needed for it?...

    Please take good care of you bbff....

    Sending you some very warm comforting hugs 🧸🤗...with my love and care...

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    hey beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all other beautifuls 🙄

    You're a dear lady aren't you. no sweeryheart not at all. I love that you say things that's what people that live and care do 🤗

    Nothing was offensive at all honey. I'll leave it for now till I get the long time post finished.

    I've over 2 days been doing pists, you know when some are near impossible to get the wording right and take hrs. This was one which I'm hoping to get finished tomoz.

    Same at FAQ's thread its a fast one. Twice I've worked on posts and several distractions today.

    Yeah/nah is how I'm feeling. Pretty crappy but pull up then blaghh again.

    The damn pains wearing me down big time in groin.

    Eyes tomoz arvo lovey and single eye with that thingy they didnt ring back as they were spised too unless I have the dates wrong.

    Eyes are slightly but not much better. Scary. Not anxiety but hoping to god I haven't permanently damaged. Glasses and magnifying glass for some reading.

    Haggard. I'm thinking of the Addiction thread and what you Paws suggested bbl huns.

    Very tired. Get through the stinking downs then "normal" again. Pfftt till the next time

    Gotta go sleep loves thanks for lovely support.

    Night 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗🐾

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    22 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello Beautiful Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone....🤗.

    Thank you for saying that I didn’t hurt you...I have a hard time to speak my thoughts...even in text format..it doesn’t feel right to me...

    Definitely I do understand about words forming properly in our mind...No hurry bbff to reply Deebi...Please don’t stress yourself about doing so....

    I’m sorry about your groin pain...Very uncomfortable pain isn’t it...honey...I get when my bursitis decides to wake up...sometime a long but gentle stretch of the leg helps with mine....

    How did you appointment go with your eye?...did they tell you what’s happening and what there going to do to heal it...my prayers and healing vibes that your eye will be good as new soon.....

    Awe honey....have you been sleeping okay and eating healthy...coming out of BP as you know is very exhausting, plus on top of packing, and getting ready to move which is very stressful on its own.,,,you need plenty of good quality sleep.....

    That’s okay about the addiction thread...no pressure their either honey...

    Here alway for you with unconditional care and love bbff...💚🕊🤗🧸..( uccal )

    OdSd...always in my 💭...Still holding on to hope that it will happen....without hope we have nothing....Sooooooo my bbff...Keep your hope alive in every single part of your life.....

    Big baby 👶 🐻 Hugs....

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

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    22 March 2021 in reply to Ggrand
    Dear Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 and readers hi 🙂

    Grandy thank you. Darlin it's so wrong its so hard for you to say things. You can with me hun I need to hear the other side or good advice like you gave. It was in my mind that day what you said. Was solid.
    It crushes me that you had anger taken from you too grr 🤗💜

    I feel guilty not replying to posts. Appreciate you saying no hurry and at the addiction one esp that I was upset.

    We have down time it's just crap atm. I can't get stuck into packing cause I can't bend mostly. Even mild pains friggen hurts bad & starts it all over to way worse. So stressful. I'm ok about moving tho a mth left is getting a worry. Seeing one tomoz.
    I'm carrying a stick mostly. Steps are frightening
    I know we'll look back on this.

    The partner of besty it's heartbreaking. We heard yesterday for people to visit soon. Today he has a spurt of energy then he goes back down hard. Cruel. Still has a great sense of humour. Poor fella and of course one of my beautiful bestys like you 🤗

    Pawsy while I think of I'm giving a lot of thought into the addiction title. Thanks for your thoughts I'll be back to talk about dear friend 🤗

    It's the diabetes which I was thinking. Phew no more bleeds or damage. It's very high. My eyes as I know have decreased Yikes 6 steps which is huge. Should settle if I behave, Very slightly improved but still shocking.
    Woah when sugars are high as has happened they can affect prescription glasses explaining the whacky going ons.
    For the membrane that has a hole in it, it's worse. Appt with a specialist in May he'll decide if I need to be operated on.
    I've had breaks, so much harder coming down. But also been good other ways with diet.

    Mr loves besty my friend too he's in a bad way possible cancer as well again. Starts chemo pills soon. Sigh. We're in that dreaded age group

    .Grandy I pray SWSD. So hard not seeing you being able to ring visit stay help you like we do for eachother but in rl.

    Fill out another form for tenancy. Then bed. Much needed sleep but so much on. Still getting up early for me anyway.

    Thank you always dear sweet love. Want to but haven't been to Serious helpers lately but will it's neat.
    My eyes are making it hard here too.

    Couple of cries today. Spoke for a bit about how I'm feeling and the beautiful listened. He's so precious.

    Nigh nite darlin/s.
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    24 March 2021 in reply to demonblaster

    Hello beautiful Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩.....and all....🤗.

    Thank you for re assuring me of my post to you..yes it’s hard for me to know if I say the right things or not...when talking to someone especially my bbff....Never knowing if I said right or not....

    Please don’t feel guilty about anything here especially your new addiction thread....its ready when you are and not before....

    Im really sorry, that the partner of your bestie isn’t doing very well....That’s so sad and heartbreaking for you...

    Wow honey 6 steps is huge...please do look after your diabetics...Betty has diabetes and I am trying to learn from her...I know her legs get “wobbly “ and her eye sight seems to change due to the amount of sugar she eats at times....

    Take your time with packing and everything that you can take your time with....having back issues will make it harder for you both..Little bits done at a time does really add up to big things when they are all put together.....Slow and steady wins the race...said the turtle to the hare 😁..

    Sleep as much as you need honey...it’s important...

    Good luck with the form you filled in last night..I hope you manage to get a beautiful unit in a nice quiet place...

    Please dearest Deebi....only reply when you feel up to it...I am keeping a close watch on you....Don’t want you to strain your eyes anymore then you need to...

    Sending you a big huge hug...with much love and care..🧸🤗💚🦋🕊🦄🦢..

    👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

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    Hello Deebi,

    5kgs!!! Yay!!!! Happy Dance 💃💃💃

    Ummm... Lass... as you are clearly throwing away the kilos with such gay abandon... me thinks perhaps you wouldn't reeeallly mind if I chucked a few of mine your way... for you to toss alongside your own.... maybe??? perhaps???? pretty please????

    Seriously... well done lass... it's never easy losing weight

    Big Hugs

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