It's hard to set goals DB when beasty has a hold, I don't have any either, I can't see past today atm, let alone setting goals, I just wait for morning then wait for night, getting through each day the best I can. I can't see nothing past the day I'm surviving.
Sounds like your sort of hanging in limbo. Not sad, not happy, just normal, that's the beast DB, try to make you feel down so he can pounce on you. Careful there DB.
You had a special love with your partner, he loved you for you. That's pure love DB, I'm so pleased you felt that, but so sad of your loss.. I never have felt love, only person that said that they love me apart from my sons is you DB, I cried when you told me, was feeling ready to leave, I heard you, I care about you and didnt want to hurt you..
I hate your physical pain hun, so wish I can take it away for you. 15 out of 1-10, that's huge pain, makes for downs very hard to get up. You have purpose here DB, you help so many people, you like people and enjoy their company, on and off the forums, your a blessing to a lot of people...Do you mind if I ask you a question I'm stuck on?..ok I know you would say fire away..DB, what's your opinion . If you forgive some one for hurting you really badly, does that mean if you don't forget the bad and hurt they done to you, then deep down you haven't forgiven them them? If you don't feel to answer that's ok.
I like helping people it helps me..I cry when I answer some posts, if I read,see,hear anything sad, well I cry, I feel their pain and hurt.. that's part of who I am.
Enjoy you time with your friend, put all your energy into focusing on your friend and have a ball together, you deserve it and it will make you feel good. .
Its good to be stubborn, that's a winner in tough talking beasty down, I give up to easily, been in to deep for to long now.. will try and pull some of your stubbornness through the internet. I'm sure the closer you get to destroying the beast, the stronger that brick wall will block you, but we can break it down brick by brick, you can and I know youn will do that one day soon. .
Ive been trying when my mind is capable of doing so, some research on Depression and BP, it helps me to understand it more plus I want to learn about what you feel and go through with BP, I want to be able to be their for you if and when you need someone to talk to in a downer.
please enjoy hun, take a mental holiday and have fun with your friend.