Good on your for posting here and I hope it’s okay for me to extend a very warm welcome to you here :)
It sounds like you have been through a lot since moving to Australia. It must have been quite the change/adjustment, and that you understandably faced a number of challenges. I think moving to another country, especially if it is culturally very different to what you are used to can be quite an emotional process...
I’m the daughter of migrants, and I have witnessed the struggles (as well as the triumphs) that my parents and extended family have faced as they tried to find their place in Australia. There’s a lot to process, get used to, understand and learn, especially when most of them spoke very limited English when they first arrived.
Over time, they have gradually found their place/their rhythm, and typically that has been(is) a combination of both preserving some of their cultural practices from overseas as well as incorporating some cultural practices that are common here in Australia. It wasn’t so much a case of “picking” only one or another in their case...
Granted, I don’t believe there’s only one way to adapt to/transition to life in Australia. I think the experience and process varies between individuals. It sounds like you’re still processing a lot of things at the moment...
You sound conflicted, and I’m glad you’re letting out some of your troubles here. We would love to get to know you more, and help support you.
Would you like to tell us how things have been since your first post/a little more about yourself? There’s no pressure of course...only if and when you feel up to it.
Kind and caring thoughts,