Hi, first post here. I feel like I have nowhere to turn.
I have migrant parents and he opened a restaurant 8 years. Ive been working there since a young age (year 11) and im at a point I feel like it is taking over my life. I do waitering, delivering (everything at the front)
I have told them I do not want to work anymore but he keeps having staff issues and I keep coming back. Its an endless circle. At age 23 I want to work for jobs from my own field and meet new people.
Im not scared to do things on my own but its something about it being a family owned business and the expectations / toxic work environment that is consuming me.
My mum has severe depression and anxiety so theres family history. I have developed anxiety because the job is a lot of pressure and my mind has been conditioned to be on call all the time due to the unpredictability of the job as it can get busy without notice.
Its affected my social skills, my work at uni and my ability to go out in the world and make my own mistakes and commit to new endeavours.
The anxiety is especially bad before I leave for work. Sometimes I just waste half a day on my bed, because it consumes me and I dont want to do anything.
I have talked to them and they understand somewhat because of my mums condition but as I said its an endless circle, there is no solution.
Ive started to develop social anxiety and perhaps depression. Even on a day off I cannot relax because my mind is racing hoping I dont get called in. Im so lost.