Im sorry what you went through 3 years ago...and your struggling with flashbacks and dissociation..
I have a sexual assault anniversary and a couple more anniversaries, I try hard to get through without letting them take over my day..
I try to distract my thoughts the best I can on those days, by trying to put my mind onto something else to think about..by trying to find things I like to do for me...music, Internet games, jigsaws, listening to audio books...or staying with a friend throughout that day...doing something nice for yourself on that day....
I don’t like sleeping..because of waking up with my heart running so fast and in a sweat...I told my Counsellor about them last Thursday and she said she will tell me next visit how to overcome them....I will share here on your post after I see her next..but it won’t be until the new year...
I’m sorry it’s taken until your anniversary for you to get a reply....Please Dear Slipperyfish...If you’re feeling up to it and feel like talking, please let me know how you’re feeling...there’s no pressure to reply..
My kindest and most caring thoughts..