Hello Dear Sun_Rain..
I am really pleased to hear that you have an appointment next week with your psychologist...It might seem far away darl but it will get here soon enough....My appointments are 3 weeks apart..and I try not to think about the time in between....
I think that PTSD stays with us...it’s the way we’re taught to manage those triggered downs is so important to do so ASAP....I still get them, some times I can get passed them quicker then other times...My psych told me that my past cannot physically hurt me now...and when I go down...To tell myself that and bring myself into the here and now...Easy to say but with a damaged soul and mind..it’s very hard...
I have learnt for me, that if I go outside and feel the weather, listen to birds and watch them playing around in the trees they bring me back to the now...
Yes Sun_Rain...I really do know what you’re talking about..but please...remember that you are doing your best to help yourself, you have the want to heal you...and it will happen in time...It doesn’t matter how long you need therapy to get well, it’s always baby steps with the mentally challenged, some times we do fall, and it really doesn’t matter how many times we fall..as long as we get up each time, dust ourselves down and try again....You have been and still are doing a really great job....and we are all proud of you...
Talk anytime you feel up to it..We are near listening Sun_Rain....and care for you...
kind and caring thoughts..
Grandy