Thank you for continuing to reach out to me. I feel so alone but your concern makes me feel like I have one person in the world who is concerned about me. Last night was very traumatic for me, I won't go into details as it could be triggering for some community members. You were right about me making a mistake by having a weapon on me as it was used in the incident.
I'm currently in hospital under an alias for my own safety. I've been taking the advice of Safe Steps. They suggested that they could talk to the hospital before I was admitted to make sure that my husband wasn't notified of my admittance. They also talked to the hospital on my behalf and got him removed as my next of kin. A worker at Safe Steps is currently my next of kin just for contact purposes.
I'm so grateful for the wonderful advice from Safe Steps, they have taken a lot of the stress off me by making sure that I don't have to worry as much about my husband finding me in hospital. They are just letting me take things step by step as they know how overwhelmed I am. The next step is to work with the police and Safe Steps to get the protection order finalised.
The hospital staff have told me that I will be kept in over Christmas as my injuries will need to be monitored and will need some ongoing care which they said can't happen if I'm living on the streets. I thought that being in hospital over Christmas would be the worst thing in the world but I'm actually grateful that I will be safe, protected and cared for.
I've been dreading Christmas for a while now since the loss of my dad. I'm not sure how I will get through the day as I still feel like my hearts broken and it will never heal again. If anyone has any suggestions on how to honour my father on the day I would appreciate it. Now that I will be in hospital on the day I won't be able to visit the cemetery.
Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to provide an update on my current situation. I hope the festive season is kind to everyone. I know how hard it can be during this time of year. I will try to keep in contact. I'm looking forward to a soft warm bed tonight in the hospital, I feel so blessed to be safe and able to have a proper sleep for the first time in weeks. Thank you.