Hello beautiful peoples! Hi Em, and Blue 'n Sleepy,
Hugs straight back at ya Blue! And everyone! SO proud of you Blue, for practicing!
Aww, thanks for stopping by Sleepy. So nice to see you here. It IS a trajectory of healing! Sometimes I think, I can't post cos things aren't too bad atm- isn't that weird? Sometimes tho, support in good times is just as important as support in the bad times.
Things are...really, really ok atm! I mean, setting aside the whole daughter getting married without me thing (and even that has found a peaceful place to rest in me, for now).
My mini breakdown of last week has eased, leaving me wiser about what I can and can't do, esp whilst working and having to cope with unscheduled changes to our routines...and more clear about my need to say no at times....
H is.....calmer. Happier. We went out for dinner with some friends for his bday, and that was ok. No dramas. I dropped one of the 'banned words' lol by accident , last night, and we recovered. I said- could we pretend that I didn't just say that word that you hate? Anyway, he got over it! And he's still being affectionate and respectful.
T is happy, and standing up for herself to her friend, who is quite dominant. A great friend, but likes to be boss.
I like what Em said about connections- I totally agree. Hobbies, sports, kids, all create connections. Sometimes we hit jackpot and make a friend!
My friendship with my new-ish friend, S, is .....staying steady. slowly slowly....I'm not sure what made me feel vulnerable. Perhaps just entering a deeper level of trust and 'mutual regard'. Em the way I knew I could begin to trust her happened some months ago, when I opened up about our marriage difficulties, and she's been an absolute brick ever since, supporting both of us and being hugely instrumental in things becoming much happier around home. It's nice when you make a real connection, and it just works, on many different levels. I have probably recognised that there's some parts which we don't share, and thats ok.
Sleepy I'm up north NSW, so lockdowns don't really affect us, except for a recent visitor case which, combined with Sydney's sitch, put everyone on high alert and affected our work. But the absence of Sydneysiders is really noticeable, for the tourism related businesses.
Anyhow, for now shall just keep keeping on. Reading, working, gardening. A little holiday from drama!