Hate thinking it but Aus seems to be catching so much Americanism in all this stuff which is really really not a smart direction for us to be heading believe me. And leagues is just yet another of their sad terms that seem to be creeping in over here these days.There's all kinds of worth and looks and what have you are only a tiny tiny shallow portion of it all.
Buttttt, l can understand where your coming from non the less. l was divorced and the very first girl l'd met later on well in any serious way was basically my dream, which is a one in millions , l couldn't believe it. But l also had that kind of feeling with her in other ways to yours too but it comes to the same thing and so l basically cut it off right there and didn't let it go any further. She couldn't understand but from my point of view l just didn't want to get involved feeling as much as l loved so much about her , that we really still just weren't all that suited underneath.
l wanted relaxed with no expectations , my life was far from perfect and l was far from that too . But she just seemed like everything was almost dream like on her side and as if l'd almost be trying to live up to hers even if only subconsciously. l just didn't want that kind of feeling or pressure on myself so l stopped seeing her . That was 5yrs ago now and l've met someone else since but l still remember that thing with her and still wonder and in ways kick myself for not giving it a chance. l might've been wrong, she might've been fine with the way my life was , l was , and stages l was at and the way l liked to live, but l never gave it the chance to find out.
So at least you are giving it the chance . lt might work out it might not but if not at least you are giving it that chance . You'd regret more not giving it that chance even if it doesn't work bc at least you tried and were open to it. Try to just see how it goes and if it doesn't go anywhere then so be it but at least you gave it that chance.
Good luck. rx