Hi Midday, this post might sound a bit weird and vague, so I hope you'll stick with it. Right now you're feeling really lost, and understandably so. But I want to pick up on 'there is no place for me now'. Think about that word 'place'. What is it? The dictionary says place means 'a particular position, point, or area in space, a location'. Where are you sitting when you read this post, and write your next one? Aren't you technically in a 'place'?
Now that might seem like I'm nitpicking, but stay with me: what I'm trying to say is, you do have a place. It may not be a place that you like right now, or a place that you feel has meaning for you. But you are still here, and have a place in the world. You always will.
The next step is to find that meaning. Now that's a big job, but look how far you've come through life already with all your challenges and heartbreaks. There's an old Winston Churchill saying, 'when you're going through hell, keep going'.
For motivation, I've found that starting small really helps, especially if everything seems overwhelming. Some days your goal might just be to get out of bed and take a shower. But set those little goals and push yourself a little further each day.
When you're ready to think a bit bigger, maybe reflect on what work meant for you. How did it make you feel? What was it about your work that gave you joy? Once you've thought about that, you can then start thinking about ways you can get that feeling in other ways. What do you think?
(PS. I don't have a thread of my own on here, I just visit this section and reply to other threads and join in :) )