Couldra , firstly your very welcome to join in on the TRC thread . You will need an empathetic ear for this first bit of the journey . We are here for that .
I am very aware of the energy you will use in the next few months and beyond that to I guess . Monitor your energy closely . Some degree of exhaustion will be present and that is not helpful . ( I burst into tears a lot , however I always have ). I have BB help number in phone book . Not had to use it but have come close .
Am 69 in September , and as you know from cafe live in a remote area . Also work as contractor in a very blokey industry . Interestingly I had pruned my customers down to 3 . One is local and I have worked through covid with him and all is good there but I have to tell him now ( been to wet to work for a while . Ground still wet underneath . To soft for D 10's ) as I have changed presentation . ie : lesbian haircut ear studs etc . Have been stressing over going back to work and out of the blue one of the three customers rang last Saturday and we had a chat about working again ( told all customers at end of 19 was having a nervous breakdown and would call when and if I was over it ) then near the end of that chat I told him about Jo . He said is that all , my grand daughter is trans , he immediately addressed me as Jo and we had a lovely chat . Blew me away .
I have a 3 point plan for transition on the phone and a picture of a trans lady I once met ( at a meeting ) and when I started seeing doctors I could pull the phone out and show them . The picture is the benchmark . ( to old to be that beautiful , but sure I can be very elegant though ).
Ask doctor if you can see a psychologist to . I have been since early 2020 . That needs to be very comfortable so as I have heard you may have to shop around .
I feel your anxiety . Am with you . When I get up at stupido'clock every morning I look straight into a mirror ( glued to wall ) and always there is a grin and I say morning Jo . mmm
Could never do that before . Totally different look to pre Jo . Maybe I might achieve beautiful ? Psyche thinks so . We will see .
Was going to do stealth . Celebrate not hide for me . Plan is live in the middle of the spectrum .
You tube , Luka "The Gender Code"
ABC " Call Me Care "
Lol and hugs if needed from the never never .