Hi jadealaB, thanks for your willingness to share your experience and participate in the forum.
PTSD is quite a common mental health condition, and typically has 4 main characteristics:
1. People feel very wound up, tense, anxious, on-edge.
2. They often have flashbacks or re-experience the trauma that led to the condition.
3. They tend to want to avoid anything that reminds them of that situation that led to the condition.
4. They can often feel numb, irritable, angry, and find it hard mixing with people socially.
They are conditions that can really affect people's wellbeing, and relationships with others. However, there are treatments available. The main treatment is a type of counselling called Trauma Based Cognitive Behaviour Therapy. But there are other treatments as well.
The symptoms you discuss could be related to PTSD, but possibly other conditions as well, as it is very common for people with PTSD to also experience, for example, depression and other anxiety conditions. If you're not sure and would like to talk to someone about this, you can call our support service or talk to a GP that you trust. It sounds like this is really distressing for you, and I encourage you to reach out for help through those avenues.