dear Tony, I have to say that what you have written is what you wanted to do and say, but are you at peace by deleting them, and you know that I would never ever try and upset you.
Your auntie was once someone that you took pride in, as you were growing up, but over the years or perhaps on a single occasion 'she was got to', by whom, well who knows, but it is terribly disappointing for this to happen and then change on how she feels for you.
Perhaps these letters do reflect on what you actually want to say, but it may feel as though you're 'rubbing salt into a wound', in which case it's best to delete them.
Rejection is such an awful event which does happens so much, and it always seems as though people take advantage of it, so they rub it in, not knowing the hurt they are maintaining, oblivious of what is going on, but the person still suffers in silence.
I know that your life has been hard, but when we tell people that there will some light, then you are the classic example to be able to pull through.
I realise that once we have had depression, there is a strong chance to overcome it, but that doesn't mean we are over it totally, however what it does is to make us think what is positive and what is negative, and once this does happen, then bingo, a much more peaceful existence.
It's not easy we know, but you're a soldier. Geoff.