I was thinking the same thing SN.
Quirky I was wondering... what's wrong with being self indulgent? It doesn't mean you don't care for others just that you're recognising your own needs too.
My inner critic isn't alone today. She's brought the moral compass along to help break me down.
It is harder than usual because the moral compass wants me to be better than I am and the inner critic is using those arguments as evidence that I am a worthless human being.
Not sure if anyone has experienced this too so I'll share my thoughts and hope someone has ideas.
Critic: you're not smart enough.
Compass: you don't lack brains... You are just not trying hard enough to improve your knowledge.
Critic: because you're a poor excuse for a human.
Compass: not exactly just not meeting the expectations of others. Society is changing you need to be more caring of others.
Critic: you're too lazy to change and too selfish to care. Come on admit it. You don't care if you hurt others you just like the sound of your own voice.
Me: what's wrong with having a voice? It's better than being dead.
Critic: you know the answer to that. Nothing useful to say. Nothing genuine to give. The world wouldn't be any worse off without you. One less white trash sponge on humanity.
Compass: you do help others. You just need to try harder. You need to change for the better.
Critic: yep. Change. Erase yourself and do as you're told. If you're sticking around at least try and be useful.
Bleh. So sick of this internal discussion. Wish the dialogue in my head would just shut up.
To answer your question Quirky. I think many of us are struggling at the moment.
Thanks for letting me be self indulgent and get the crap in my head out. I hope it doesn't bring you down too.
Time to work. Physical work means the voices are too stuffed to harrass me.