I don't know
Psychiatrist says I need to make a schedule. No things to do. Don't know when I should wake up, can't make noise if im the only one awake. Can't eat breakfast if I wake up late. Too much to think about when I need to stop thinking. So much easier to set a routine when I was in the mental health ward. I dont know how to solve any issues at home because nobody is going to change any of it.
I want to make my own food. Enough food for me to eat that does not take up too much space in the fridge because too much in the fridge no thing exists. I don't want to eat will make things worse if I don't eat.
I'm so useless
Was going to walk to the library to get a replacement card so I can get free EBooks and audiobooks because I don't want to spend money. Hour walk is manageable. have to go in the afternoon because its too hot before 3.
I can't get myself to do anything productive. Money money money. would be nice to cut all contact with family.
I don't know what to do with my life. A useless immature "adult" who cant do anything. Dont want to just self pity ii hate myself so much. Nothing to live for no reason to keep existing.
So hard talking to people. Anybody strangers or family.
Wasting so much time. Need to tell mum im a waste of a child a disappointment that she ashamed hate me hates.
I'm too caught up with overthinking that I'm paralyzed and can't make myself do anything. You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink. How can I get myself to drink and do what I need to fix my life, make changes to myself to live life.
Do I not want to do it or am I too petrified and scared to try, either one has the same result and time is running out for me. Can't stay in room
Driver license car money transport car. I should get my liscense but never feel ready. I'm dont enjoy driving how else do you get where you need with the flexibilty. money to driving instructor to take test need my own job to feel less guilty shut up brain one problem at a time.
Stop phone when should be sleeping mobile phones bad or just symptom of something else. I need to let thoughts pass when its bed time but they're so obnoxious and wont be quiet.
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel