hello. I dont think I have seen you about but you have a post count. welcome.
firstly, I hope you don't mind if I say thank you for your services.
Now I would hope or assume the doctor / surgeon did their maths in order for you to be able to the lose that amount of weight in that time. I would guess you would also have to do some sort of activities for burning calories. Sorry, I am no expert here.
Yet when you are in that position where something seems impossible, I know the temptation to give in is real, as it "whats the point". Of course that becomes a self fulfilling prophesy. The other perspective is to try. But then the mind tell you again "why".
if you allow me to be bold... what our mind tells us (or me) are only thoughts and that is all they are. Only thoughts. On occasions in the past I have been able to tell myself how useless I am, etc. and in these instances have to ride those waves.
there was an occasion when I had to have a psa test ... if the results came back the same as last time, they were going to do a biopsy. Just to make it more interesting, it was suggested I try to compartmentalize my thoughts about this. Thanks! I had somewhat resigned myself to the fact it was going to be high. It was a nervous wait. However I was lucky. Admittedly there was little I could do either way as it was just a blood test.
Sometimes ... in order to move a mountain we have to move one pebble at a time.
If you love(d) long gym sessions, I would bet some of the exercises you would consider as a challenge to see what you could do?
My other thought is that this is also something you could speak with the doctor about? The feeling of not making it and what means to you.
If it is worth anything, I am interested in hearing your story, your dreams etc. Listening to you.