I was living a good Australian life after migrating, good job, got residency everything was perfect. My Marriage got fixed, however just before marriage fell in love with another girl, I know I was wrong. Due to society pressure did not broke the marriage and got married. However was not happy, sponsored the girl to Australia, I was unable to live with her. Told her the truth, she said she understands, then went to court and put domestic violence case against me as that will assure her residency. Blind in love, I said I do not care. Started living with my gf. She was nice. I had fun with her, suddenly after my divorce ,she changed and started behaving bossy. Its 2 years now and I am regretting my decision. Want to go back to my wife, but unsure how will she take it and to be honest I am more ashamed.
I wish I die, thought of killing myself, tried once unsuccessfully, dont have courage to do it again . I feel i am the most baddest person and karma is hitting me hard. Dont know what to do, no one to blame but me. Everyday i cry, just stay in bed, my work is affected, I pray to god before sleeping that I should not wake up tomorrow. I dont know what to do, my head is always heavy, I feel like a loser.