Truly sorry about your brother being like that. Wish I had some really excellent advice for you, but I simply don't.
Oh butterflies on the ceiling of the women's bathroom... sounds beautiful Bbydoll. I was curious about what you said there. So I looked it up, and came across the "State Theatre". Thought that may be the one you are referring to. Also looked up the one I went to, it was the Capitol Theatre.
Yeah that sort of makes sense what the exshrink said to you.
The sunshine is out here today, where I am. I will be going for a walk out near the ocean. Love the fresh ocean air. Just breathing it in deeply wakes me up. Have you got somewhere close you can get some sunshine? Even a balcony etc.
And what arts did you do, like drawing, painting? And where you good at it. I have attempted both, me... not so good at it.
You mentioned a puppy or another pet a while back. Wonder if you could provide foster care for one. Or even an inside kitty. One that needs a lot of love. I would struggle with that...possibly just get far to attached and not want to give it back or something.
And how is your mum?
I do hope you can find even a spot of sunshine to soak in.
I will be doing a smoothie challenge soon, if you would like to join me. I know you said you don't have a blender, nor could afford one. But you can get some good ones cheaply. Not sure exactly what your body could tolerate, but please will you think about it. Easy way to get your body flooded with extra nutrients.
See you layer Bbydoll